"Jia Qi, I'm a bastard, I'm the complete bastard, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."

"Josnian... why are you doing this to me? You clearly know how much I like my little bastard, and you clearly know that I'm in pain, why do you still treat me like this? What have I done wrong to make you do this?

Punish me?"

"You didn't do anything wrong. It was me who was wrong. It was my self-righteousness all along." Josnian's voice was a bit urgent. "Jia Qi, it's all my fault. Just scold me. I'll feel better if you scold me."

...Don't hold it in your heart. I thought about telling you, but because of my avoidance and self-blame, you and Chengfan missed many years of mother-son affection. I'm a bastard, Jia Qi, don't hold it in your heart, scold me.

I."

Ye Jiaqi's throat was choked and she could no longer say a word. Her eyes were red and full of water.

Josnian was panicked. He had promised himself that he would never make her cry again.

But before he could figure out how to explain this to her, she had already guessed it.

I'm afraid she had guessed it a long time ago, but she was waiting for him to take the initiative to speak out, but until now that Qiao Chengfan has returned to the capital, he has not confessed to her.

She always gave him opportunities again and again, but he always didn't know how to cherish them.

Her choked sobs and his breathing echoed in the air, breaking the silence of the space and becoming the only sounds.

Ye Jiaqi was unable to push him away anymore, so Josnian held her in his arms.

"Josnian... I can't forgive you. Really, I can't find a reason to convince myself to forgive you..."

"You don't have to forgive me, and I don't ask you to forgive me. It's my fault."

"Josnian, why are you so cruel? Chengfan still calls me 'Qiqi'. Do you know that in my dreams, I always want the little bastard to call me 'Mom'? I want to hear him call me personally. I often do this

Dream. But now...how do you ask me to forgive you? Do I know how much my heart hurts?"

"Good day, good day." In a panic, Josnian grabbed her cold hand and said, "How about you recognize Chengfan back? He has always liked you and he will always be your son. He will change his mind."

"Josnian, you are so cruel to our mother and son..." Ye Jiaqi looked at him with tears in his eyes.

Josnian was unable to refute. He was a failed husband and a failed father.

He couldn't even say a word of comfort, and he knew that she didn't need his comfort.

Ye Jiaqi's body was cold and a little stiff, and his heart was in pain like a knife. The thorn in his heart had not been pulled out, as if it was pierced deeper.

No one spoke again, and there was silence again.

"I have no excuses for what I did in the past. If I did something wrong, I did something wrong..." Josnian said slowly, "I have brought a lot of harm to you and Chengfan. In the days to come,

... I hope the family can stay together well, give me a chance to make amends, and give me a chance to be good to you."

"Josnian, you said you wouldn't hurt me, why did you still hurt me? You don't mean what you say, you are a villain! You are a villain!" She beat his chest, crying.

"I have thought about confessing to you, if not today, then in the past few days... You are right, I am a villain, and I will not make any excuses for myself..."
Chapter completed!