No woman who has walked out of the ivory tower and experienced several years of social baptism will be willing to witness the growth of a man.

At this point, Zhang Yao, like those women, has seen my responsibility, and today, I have also seen my selfishness. It is obvious that I am not mature enough and have not been honest.

As a result, she inevitably wondered whether I could give her love that was pure and without any impurities in the love between us... The facts are always good at eloquence, and to be fair, I was not able to be pure.

The blame-maker attributed all this to the ruthless life. I am doing it now. As smart as her, how can I not see this? That's why she told me what she didn't want to witness my growth.

Why can't I understand?

But I couldn't make any promises at this time. We all know that no matter how sincere the promise was, it was empty and powerless at this time... I let out a long sigh, and I nodded lightly, and said nothing.

Zhang Yao was still facing away from me, making it impossible to see her expression.

She should be trying her best to control her shoulders, not letting herself cry in tears.

I, who witnessed all this, can do nothing except heartache and self-blame. I can only accompany her behind her and wait for what she wants to say next.

However, during the long time, Zhang Yao did not say a word, and was silent like me.

It's getting darker.

I raised my head and tried to cross the dazzling street lights and saw the stars in the sky.

However, there is nothing that can be reached, only a dark curtain-like sky... I forgot that the sky is full of stars, and I can't see it in the bustling capital.

"call......"

I let out a breath of turbid air and finally opened my mouth to break the silence.

"It's late at night, go to my house to have something to eat, I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you?"

Zhang Yao turned her head slightly, smiled and said, "Yes, it's late at night, and it's time for me to go home."

"Eat something before leaving..."

"No need, I'm not hungry yet."

As he said that, Zhang Yao took a step. This was the first step to leave the old community. I don’t know if it would be the first step to leave me. The sound of his heels stepping on the ground seemed to hit the drum beat of the crotch in my heart. Every sound rang in my chest.

I really wanted to run over to stop her, and I also wanted to open my mouth and shout to her not to do it. But I clearly knew that I didn't have the qualifications.

It was my selfishness and choice that hurt her.

Zhang Yao respected my choice, but would not forgive my behavior, and would not want to be the woman who witnessed my growth.

So she left, no difference from the time point yesterday.

Twenty-four hours ago, I hugged her in my arms again; twenty-four hours later, she left here again and left me.

......

Are we considered breaking up?

This is the first question I asked myself after I returned to the rental house.

No one clearly said those two words, but her actions and words seemed to mean that. I really wanted to deceive myself and I had never given birth to anything. Tomorrow I will return to Zhuoma to work as usual, and go to see Xiang Yu at noon to clarify the cooperation benefits of the two companies. No matter what the result is, I will complete the bet with Mu Qing...

However, the phone call from my father in the evening was something I could not forget. The old man who loved me the most in my family was about to leave this world.

In grief, I lit a cigarette for myself, and soon, a faint tobacco mist filled the room. I subconsciously looked at the bedroom and found that the wooden door was wide open.

Then I realized that there was no white rose in the room that restrained me.

Shaking my head, I stood up from the sand and found a dusty backpack in the corner of the house. This was the one I carried when I first came to Beijing with Tong Xue. The style was a bit old, but it witnessed all the experiences I experienced in this city over the past five years.

After I wiped it clean with a wet rag, I found a few pieces of change in the pile of clothes, and then packed the spare toiletries together and stuffed them all into my backpack.

After doing all this, I took out my cell phone and gave Tong Xue a text message.

"Give me my ID number, I'll book the ticket."

After a moment, Tong Xue sent her ID number over. At the end of the string of numbers, she asked, "Does Zhang Yao know about this?"

I didn't know whether this question was a concern among friends or a woman's intuition, but I still truthfully replied to her three words: "I understand."

Tong Xue didn't give me any more replies. Maybe she was just asking.

I used the WeChat mini program and ordered two high-speed rail tickets to the small town at 9 o'clock tomorrow morning, and immediately gave Tong Xue information.

"I know, see you at South Station tomorrow morning."

After receiving this reply, I called my dad.

"Dad, I'll arrive at the high-speed train at 9 o'clock tomorrow at around 3 o'clock in the afternoon... Tell me my grandma."

"Sure, I'll tell your grandmother when she wakes up."

"Are you asleep? I still want to talk to her."

"Just just fell asleep..."

"I hope I can see you tomorrow."

The father sighed and comforted, "Yes, she has been waiting for you to come back... By the way, can Xiaoxue come back together?"

"Let's talk to her and let's go back together."

"That's good, your grandma will definitely be happy when she hears it."

"I hope."

I suddenly didn't want to continue chatting anymore. Whenever my parents mentioned Tong Xue, I felt guilty. I outlined them that I would look good in the future, but one day, I would personally destroy the beauty in their eyes.

"I won't talk about dad, I have to sleep. I'll have to drive to the bus tomorrow morning."

"Okay, let's talk about it tomorrow."

After saying that, my father hung up the phone.

I immediately threw my phone on the sand, venting my emotions in my heart, being as selfish as me, and finally waiting for the punishment of life. Zhang Yao's steps were just the beginning.

One day in the future, I will face my parents' disappointed expressions and deeper self-blame.

Thinking about it now, Zhang Yao is really kind. She didn't choose to leave that day, and she was already tolerant enough... Just like when we were dating, she gave me all her tolerance and patience, and then endured the harm that I, a selfish man, brought to her alone.

Oh my God, please be kind to this kind of kind woman. Don’t let her meet a man like me again, and don’t let her bear those burdens on her thin shoulders.
Chapter completed!