Chapter 237 The Monologue of Yun Fangmei
"I still can't forget my miserable past..." Yun Fangmei kicked away the dead player's body on the ground and stared at the bloody sunset in the distance. "Maybe my past is not miserable, but numb, right?" Yun Fangmei was still as cold as she looked, with an undetectable sadness in her eyes. "As a killing machine..." Yun Fangmei was already in her memories of the past at this time.
On the day of self-born, it seems that everything should be like your friends and classmates, living an ordinary life in an ordinary world, and then dying in an ordinary way. However, all this was just an illusion from the beginning.
War is a vocabulary that I only learned in the third grade of elementary school, but not from the teacher’s mouth but from my grandfather’s mouth.
The name of the Demon Wolf in the Nordic mythology is the nickname of my family for generations. The mercenary organizations active in all parts of the world are the true face of my family. A family that is used to seeking survival in blood and explosions will no longer allow any member to become the weakness of the entire family, but it inherits my father's stubborn character.
When I was sixteen, I resolutely fled my home with a few classmates who had the same idea and did not want to be restrained by the family. The result was very simple. We were chased by a group of strangers, as incredible but so real as a movie. In the end, I survived alone, rescued by my grandfather and family members. However, it was not until ten years later that I accidentally discovered that the person who chased me and my classmates was the mercenaries sent by my family.
But at that time I had even forgotten the "hate".
The weight of a copper plate on the battlefield is more important than life. I have personally experienced life and death and understood this word that I was despised by myself. My father also braved artillery fire on the battlefield every day to raise my tuition. From then on, I gradually understood my family from the inside and gradually hated the ignorance of the past.
But it is still the same. No matter how my attitude changes reality, it will always make me understand the cruelty of fate.
When I was 22 years old, I met my first first love in a city. He didn't understand everything about me, just love me simply like a teenager in adolescence. From then on, I naively thought that I could live like an ordinary person.
When he was 23, the dream lasted for several months and then shattered. He died in the newspaper in a gas leak, but it was no different to me as a murder.
When I returned to the battlefield, I deliberately performed the most dangerous task, just killing people like venting. Simply put, it was like gambling or taking drugs. Gradually, killing people became like breathing, and my feelings fell into numbness. According to my grandfather's words, I have become the best "killing machine", but his expression was not happy at the time.
Finally, when I was 24 years old, I fell into a trap in an operation and fell into a sea of fire. I thought I would die, but my grandfather rescued me from the fire.
In the underground hospital, although I barely saved my life, the burns on a large area of tissue caused me to lose my left eye and one-quarter of my skin tissue. I just live with a bandage every day, and my grandfather has "failed to deal with the aftermath" for the reason, and I have erased my identity and prepared a new identity for me. Finally, I got the identity of an ordinary person, but it is meaningless to put the soul that has lost its emotions into the ordinary again. I can only repeat my daily life like a machine.
Until one day, there was something that seemed to be some kind of control cabin in my home. The signature was my grandfather, and the content of the message asked me to enter it and collect some information. This was my first time in contact with "Dream Hope".
Then time passed quickly. I don’t remember that the players I had contacted with before even forgot about their profession. I only knew that the day I met her was in a quiet forest.
I fell to the ground exhausted after being attacked by monsters
She is so powerful but alone in front of me
"you......"
"It's the same as me."
I don’t know it was a spiritual response, or just a chance of a program, so I said the same thing like her. When I came to my senses, it was impossible to log out of the game, but I never wanted to do that, and just let the strange girl hug her body gently. The warmth like a human being but contains endless pain and hatred was my initial reflection of her, and her long silver hair and childlike face made people feel that this child was destined to be out of reach for all negative feelings.
There was neither a systematic prompt nor any form of certainty or denial. My corrected appearance when I entered the game gradually returned to my burned appearance. The pain that was enough to make ordinary people faint later seemed like a long-lost feeling for me, and my numb nerves gradually regained a trace of perception.
"Remember it, think about this pain carefully, and never forget it."
"I will give you all the negative feelings in this world, bear it and recall everything you have lost."
"You and I will not be such a beautiful bond as a partner or friend. You and I will only be such a cold relationship as a master or servant."
"But I will not allow you to die until you pay off all that I have given you."
"Then, I will never die until I give you the strongest power."
"In the end, if anyone among us cannot fulfill this promise, then life will not be forgiven."
Yes, so my ‘rebirth’ began in another world.
"What are you thinking?" Su Keen's words brought Yun Fangmei back to reality from memories of the past, "Did you decide? Be truly with us." Su Keen asked Yun Fangmei to make a decision before, which was to let Yun Fangmei abandon ** and exist forever in this world, "You and others are not from this world, but we have a way. As long as you are willing, you will always be from this world." Su Keen's tone was full of temptation, as if confusing Yun Fangmei.
"I..." Yun Fangmei was a little hesitant at this time. After all, she wanted to give up the possibility of becoming a human being and become the so-called data. But do she have something to be attached to in the world? Countless figures flashed through Yun Fangmei's mind. Some of these figures brought pain to Yun Fangmei, and some brought regret to Yun Fangmei, but do Yun Fangmei still have the so-called happiness...
"Hey! Do you know what you are deciding?" At this time, Shangguan Jing used the space crack to find the place where Yun Fangmei is. "Carel, Allen is handed over to you!" After Shangguan Jing knew Yun Fangmei's current situation, he understood that if he did not persuade Yun Fangmei, Yun Fangmei would really have no way to save it. "Are you willing to become a set of data? Without any body, you live in this false world!" Shangguan Jing already knew what Su Keen wanted Yun Fangmei to do, and he wanted to persuade Yun Fangmei back.
"I understand." Carell and Allen took the initiative to find a way to hold Sukene up at the same time, "I'll leave this girl to you." Carell and Allen must not be distracted when dealing with Sukene, so Yun Fangmei gave it to Shangguan Jing to find a way to persuade him.
"And don't forget that if you become data, you will most likely disappear from this world due to data fluctuations caused by a death!" The Shangguan Jing Sect has surrounded the house where Yun Fangmei is, but now there is no way to open the game warehouse. "I know your past life, but don't you still have two friends, Setting Sun and Sanchel?" Shangguan Jing was trying to make her understand from Yun Fangmei's thoughts that she could not destroy her **.
"And what? Everything in the world will be destroyed..." Yun Fangmei's eyes were hollow and scary, "Besides, what's the point of living in that world? Anyway, it's killing here, it's killing here... At least someone here understands me, someone needs me." Yun Fangmei's tone sounded full of self-abandonment. Maybe she really wants to give up everything in the world, right?
"But you can't get anything if you become data!" Shangguan Jing wanted to find a way to rescue Yun Fangmei. Regardless of whether they are enemies or not, for Shangguan Jing, the enemies in the game will definitely not involve the real world. If other opponents encounter this situation, he will also find a way to rescue them. "And, if you live in this world, isn't there any hope?"
"I can't see hope anymore, there is darkness in front of me." Yun Fangmei looked at Shangguan Jing who tried her best to persuade him, "Dream Mirror, you are indeed a very strange person. I am your biggest enemy, but you find a way to save me... Maybe if I met you back then, I would have thought of a normal person..." Yun Fangmei turned around and prepared to make a contract with Su Keen.
"If there is darkness in front of me, I will keep moving forward." Shangguan Jing's words made Yun Fangmei stop suddenly, "I believe that at the end of all darkness there is light, and at the end of all despair there is hope!" Shangguan Jing shouted this sentence very hard at this time, "Just like you wanted to escape back then, and you wanted to be an ordinary person back then, you clearly have friendship with Sanchel and the others, you have left there, and your life has just begun." Shangguan Jing felt when he got Yun Fangmei's information.
It was a kind of heartache. The mercenary on the battlefield, the person he liked died from his family. This kind of pain is not something that ordinary people can tolerate. "And, don't you think your grandfather loves you very much? You can die in the sea of fire, but he came to save you. You obviously have no use value, but he lets you live in another way..." Shangguan Jing paused for a moment, "It's just that his way of loving you is very extreme..." After Shangguan Jing finished speaking, Yun Fangmei, who was walking towards Su Keen, stopped and walked towards Shangguan Jing.
"Maybe, he is like you said, maybe my life can be full of hope..." Yun Fangmei's eyes were filled with tears, and she squatted down to look at Shangguan Jing, "You are like him, you can shine the sunshine in my heart..." Yun Fangmei smiled very rarely, with tears in her eyes, "Thank you... Mirror of Dreams." Yun Fangmei stood up at this time...
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