"But now, I want to tell you."

After saying this, he stopped again and remained silent for a long time. I almost thought he would never speak again, but I saw his eyes staring at a candlestick placed beside the bed. The candle flame was flickering in the darkness.

The night exudes a warm orange-red light.

And the light reflected in his eyes also gave his gaze a warmth.

For a moment, he seemed to be in the warm spring of March, and his whole body became lighter.

At this time, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and then he looked at me and said: "Do you still remember that I once told you that when I first learned about my life experience, I was hit hard.

It’s almost impossible to survive.”

I don’t know why he suddenly mentioned this matter, but I understand why he asked everyone to go out. Looking at his pale face, I nodded silently.

"Then do you know how I survived?"

"..." I shook my head, but my heart seemed to be illuminated by the candlelight, and there was a little light.

Why did he tell me this at this time and in this situation?

Looking at my somewhat blank eyes, his smile revealed a hint of helplessness, "Sure enough," and said, "It's because, when I learned about my life experience, I also met a person."

"...alone?"

"Yes."

He nodded slightly, because that movement seemed to involve the wound on his chest, and he immediately frowned and said "Huh". I hurriedly said: "You'd better not say anything. If you have anything to say, let's wait until it's cured."

Isn’t it bad?”

He gritted his teeth, as if enduring great pain, and a thin layer of cold sweat broke out on his forehead. Finally, after a while, his face became even paler, but he raised his head and smiled at me again: "I must

Say it now. Because only at this moment, you will not be scared away by me."

"..." I was speechless. Looking at the sweat on his face, I gently took out a silk handkerchief from my arms and wiped it for him.

With this move of mine, I no longer stopped him. Pei Yuanxiu smiled and breathed a sigh of relief and continued: "At that time, I accidentally learned about my life experience and knew that I was regarded as the foundation of the country by the world and the minister of the DPRK.

The prince who is competing to flatter me is not the son of the royal family, and the Supreme Being sitting on the dragon throne is not my biological father... Do you know how sad I am?"

I remained silent and nodded.

Even ordinary people would feel like a bolt from the blue if they knew that their father, whom they had been with for decades, was not his biological child. But for him, his identity was so special, this truth was not only the truth for him, but also a major blow.

If you are a slightly weak-minded person, you may not be able to survive it as he said.

But he——

Pei Yuanxiu looked at the candlelight and said slowly: "At that time, I was hit hard, as if the sky was falling. People passing by me greeted me, were respectful to me, and even treated me with kindness.

Laughing makes me feel scared. It's not fear of them, but fear. Once the truth is revealed, the flattery of these people will immediately turn into sarcasm; their deferment will turn into hurt; and no one will treat me again.

Laugh..."

"..."

"Everything about me will disappear."

"..."

"That day, I was like a ghost, unable to find my home, so I could only wander around the palace aimlessly. But no matter where I went, people were saluting and flattering me, but I became more and more

Scared, even when I see a human figure."

"..."

"I'm not afraid of their existence, I'm afraid that they will leave."

"..."

"So, I almost ran away in panic, avoiding everyone."

"..."

"Then, I walked to a very quiet road."

His voice when he said these words, whether it was because his breath was weak after being injured, or because of the tenderness in his memories, his voice also became softer, like a dream——

"The path was very narrow, with dense bamboos on both sides, covering the entire path. When I walked in it alone, it seemed that the path finally separated me from everyone else, allowing me to

I felt like I had a moment of peace.

Then, I heard someone reciting words.

The elegant pavilion is wide and green, but the forbidden road is wide and beautiful. The courtier's house with Zhilan and jade trees. A picture of Luobin.

I have seen it in person after two years of celebration, and I am blessed with good fortune and longevity this year. Even more people have added to my head. It is only eight thousand years old.

You must have never imagined that my hesitation and confusion completely disappeared after hearing that voice.

I followed the voice and walked forward slowly, and then I saw the Neizang Pavilion. The door was still ajar, and the shadow of the bamboo leaves fell on the door, swaying, rising and falling with the voice. When I opened the door

When I arrived, I saw a neat girl sitting by the window, holding a book and smiling.

Her skin is very white, as white as a piece of mutton-fat jade, without a single flaw; she sits at the window, and the sun shines right on her forehead, clear and dazzling; she is not only dignified, but also very clean, without any

There is no rouge or eyebrow makeup, but her eyebrows are very delicate, and her eyes are especially beautiful, like a pool of spring water, and as if all the stars in the sky have melted into it, and they are brighter than the sunlight shining on her face.

More agile; her eyelashes are long and curled. When she lowers her head to read, the eyelashes are like a perching bird, but when she raises her head to look at the sunshine outside, the bird seems to be about to take flight.

Like flying.

Moreover, in her eyes, I saw that the entire imperial city was almost completely clean...

and wisdom.

Then, I walked in.

She was startled when she saw me appearing. Those eyes were like the deer I almost shot in the paddock. They were clean and innocent, and she was full of panic because of my sudden intrusion. At first,

I didn't shoot the deer, but she - I seemed to have made up my mind at that moment not to hurt her.

Moreover, I found that her manners were very good. Although she performed the courtesy of a palace maid, she was neither humble nor overbearing. She was more dignified than the daughters of princes and ministers.

I asked her to find a rare ancient book. In fact, I just wanted to stay in the Tibetan Pavilion for a while, see her more, and talk to her more. Unexpectedly, she found it very quickly, and I found her.

Compiling all the ancient books in the Neizang Pavilion according to the almanac and organizing them clearly. This is something that the Royal Library has always wanted to do but has never had time to do. Unexpectedly, she, a little palace maid, could actually do it.

.

When she took the book to register, even though she hid the paper she usually used, I still saw her handwriting on it, which was a good spiritual scripture.

I just learned that there is a rare treasure hidden in the Tibetan Pavilion.

At that time, I realized that I could no longer take my eyes away from her face.

Maybe that girl is not an extremely beautiful woman. I have indeed seen many stunning beauties. Compared with them, she is indeed inferior, or in other words, much lighter.

However, whether you believe it or not, after seeing the faint scenery, I can't see anything else.

When you first see a lotus, you realize that peonies are not just beautiful or precious."

After he said this, he slowly raised his head and looked at me who was almost stunned. He raised his hand with difficulty and rubbed my cheek that was already wet with tears with his palm.

It was a light that was almost infatuated. He smiled softly and said: "After so many years, you are still the same as when I first saw you."

Another burst of hot tears fell down, immediately moistening his palms.

How is this possible?

How could I not change?

After so many years, how can it be possible that what I have experienced is still the same as that girl who was in the Tibetan Pavilion, full of expectations for her life, future, and everything? I have been riddled with sorrows for half of my life, and I have experienced countless sorrows.

How could it be possible to still be in the same state of mind as that clear and exquisite one?

I choked and said: "I am different. I have been different for a long time."

Pei Yuanxiu didn't speak, but still looked at me with his eyes crooked, with a warm smile in his eyes. He said, "Later, I often visited you."

"..."

I was stunned for a moment and said subconsciously: "But I——"

"Yes, you don't know."

"..."

"When I look at you, you never know."

"..."

"So, I know that when you smile, there is a shallow smile dimple on the right side of your face; I have listened to you telling stories. You told that Yu'er about a blockbuster, about breaking a boat, about going to the thorns to plead guilty, and I listened to them all.

Yes; I know that you like Li Bai's poems, and you are well versed in the checks and balances of the Yinling Sect's practice of letting go of spirits outside. Although what you said, that Yu'er didn't understand at all... Maybe it was because of the incomprehension.

, you will tell her; I also know that you are usually very frugal. You save all the rewards and monthly salary you receive, and you hardly use any money, but you spend money to take care of a friend who is locked up in the cold palace.

."

"..."

"I know better..." He looked into my eyes and said slowly: "You don't want to be attached to a dragon or a phoenix, or have anything to do with any of our princes. You just want to spend the few years in the palace quietly.

Then leave the palace and live a life that belongs only to you."

"..."

Every time he said a word, my face turned pale. When he finished the last sentence, my face was already pale.

He really knows everything.

He even knows the things that Yu'er often says to shame me, and even the things that I think in my heart and have inadvertently revealed to Yu'er.

I never thought that what I thought was my life would actually have the footprints of others.

It's just that he has been behind me, waiting quietly, so I have never seen his footprints, and I have never cherished his eyes...

"Qingying."

He called my name, and even my breathing became heavier. I almost didn't dare, but I had to raise my head to meet his eyes. Those deep black eyes looked at me with unprecedented solemnity.

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Chapter completed!