Looking at my shocked expression, the nun also felt something strange, and looked at me with a slight frown: "What, do you know the nun?"

I still didn't say anything, just looked at her with wide eyes.

There has never been a person like her who, when she appeared in front of me, stirred up endless waves in my heart, and also opened up those dusty past events in an almost rough way. At this moment, I only felt that my heart was surging, and my heartbeat was so painful that it almost stopped.

He seemed to have stopped, almost at a loss, and unconsciously whispered her name——

"Qing...ying..."

It was like a thunder exploded from the top of my head.

Her eyes suddenly widened.

At this moment, both of them stopped breathing. The bhikshuni looked at me with an expression of disbelief, and his lips trembled slightly: "You, you are -"

"..."

"Light...light...?"

The atmosphere was so oppressive that my chest ached. I stood there numbly. The oil lamp behind me flickered. The dim light illuminated the thin face, making it difficult to distinguish whether it was in reality or not.

In a dream.

How could it be...

The people around me slowly sat down, and a few people were looking at the two of us strangely. I finally regained some sense and slowly sat down next to her.

Her stiff body was squeezed by me, but she still turned her head and looked at me.

"Light? Is it you?"

This familiar yet unfamiliar name made me shiver suddenly.

She also looked at me: "Are you really——?"

Suddenly I didn't dare to look at her anymore. I looked down at my bent knees. My legs were shaking slightly. In her stunned eyes, I nodded slightly.

I heard her let out a long breath, as if opening a big knot in her heart. At this time, I slowly turned my head. Under the dim light, their eyes looked a little helpless. I thought

Like me, she never thought about the day we would see each other again, and meeting each other at this moment was like a lifetime ago.

Light...Qingying...

Listening to these two names sounding like this, even I fell into a trance.

Back then, it was because of these two names that were so similar that it made people confused, that gave me and her the chance to change their destiny.

As a result, she became the proud daughter of the Yan family in Xichuan, but she had gone through many hardships.

And I became who I am today.

The life we ​​thought we could control by ourselves has not yet finished well, but we have met unexpectedly, which makes me feel helpless as if he is not sure whether he will die or not.

Yes, the story told by Liu Li was all true, but Shen Rou's testimony was wrong. I did not steal Yan Qingqing's money, and the nun in front of me was not the eldest daughter of the Yan family.

She is the real Yue Qingying!

"Why are you here?"

I don’t know how long it took, but she and I finally found our own heartbeats and voices, and finally calmed down. She immediately asked me, and I also knew that she had so many questions to ask after meeting her like we were separated from each other in another world.

Yes, I have too much to ask her.

"What about you? At that time, didn't you say you wanted to run away and find your lover?"

After hearing my words, a faint bitter smile appeared on her pale and indifferent face: "After you helped me fake my death, I did escape, but -"

"What's wrong?"

"The day I escaped back, I happened to bump into the bride he married passing by."

I froze for a moment.

I still remember that I entered the palace with her at that time. Because we were the first to be admitted, we were the only two in the team. Also because she kept crying and looked pitiful. I asked her with concern what happened, and then I found out.

Because her family was poor, she sold herself into the palace in order to raise money to marry her brother, and she could only separate from her childhood sweetheart.

At that time, there was a shadow in my heart.

So, I told her the bold plan. Although she looked weak and weak, she was also bold and courageous. From that day on, we exchanged our names.

The eunuch in charge of leading the team didn't care much about us at first, and the two people's names were too similar and they were both young women, so he didn't pay much attention to the change of names. Later, more and more palace maids were enrolled.

, everyone calls me Qingying, everyone calls her Qingying. She has truly become Qingying, and I have truly become Qingying.

It was at that time that the carriage entering the palace stopped at a deserted slope in the suburbs for everyone to rest. She and I took the opportunity to implement our plan.

She escaped from the cliff, leaving behind a piece of bloody clothes. Yan Qingqing's disappearance became an unsolved case. In order to cover up the public's eyes, the case was quickly closed.

As for me, I have a new identity openly and can wait for the amnesty in the palace five years later and be reborn!

But I didn’t expect that everything would go as planned.

Her childhood sweetheart actually got married within a few months of her leaving?

I looked at her thin face. Perhaps because of her life in Gufo Qingdeng over the years, she no longer had many expressions. Apart from the surprise when they met again, she had calmed down now and said slowly: "I don't have any expressions."

I don’t want to ask, I just think I’m being ridiculous.”

"..."

"Who would have thought that when I got home, I would realize that I was really ridiculous."

"Why?"

"My parents used the money I earned from selling myself to the palace to marry my brother's wife. The family's expenses increased even more, and I fled back. I was afraid of being seen, so I couldn't go out to work, so I had a mouth to eat in vain.

”

"..." I understood immediately.

"So, have you become a monk?"

She smiled bitterly and said: "By that time, everyone has already died once, what else can we look forward to?"

My voice was strangely choked: "I didn't expect that this would happen."

"Yeah. I never imagined that people would be like this."

I could completely understand the deep hurt in her eyes, which could not be eliminated no matter how much she ate, fasted, and chanted Buddha's name, so I could only change the topic and asked: "Then how could you - I heard the eldest princess say,

A few years ago you already——"

"Dead, right?" She smiled calmly: "Three years ago, I was indeed seriously ill and almost died. At that time, Master Jingchang had been taking care of me - oh, she was the eldest princess's wife.

Mother. At that time, I thought I would not survive. As you know, people are about to die——"

What did I understand: "Did you tell her what happened back then?"

"I originally thought that since the palace holds an amnesty once every five years, you should leave the palace anyway. Even if I told Master Jingchang, it would not spread to the palace. Who knows, she turned out to be

The Emperor's concubine, Master Jingchang, lives in Huangze Temple. Although the abbot is very polite to her and a wealthy daughter often comes to visit her, no one thinks about it elsewhere. She only told me about it later."

She said and looked up at me: "Why are you like this? I heard from the eldest princess that you gave birth to a daughter for the emperor?"

I said calmly: "Yeah."

"Then you now——"

"I don't want to mention those things anymore."

Compared to her, I could tell the past that hurt her deeply so lightly, but I couldn't say a word. She seemed to understand and pursed her lips silently.

After a moment of silence, I turned my head again: "Qingying, you——"

"Don't call me by this name." She smiled faintly: "I almost don't know who I am calling. The poor nun's name is Jingxu."

"Jingxu..." I murmured these two words, which were obviously the name of an ordinary bhikshuni, but after hearing her story and reciting her name again, I felt filled with sadness and the corners of my eyes were a little hot.

: "Then why are you here again now?"

"I was entrusted by Master Jingchang to find someone."

"Master Jingchang?" Isn't that Zhao Shuyuan? Who is she looking for?

"Actually, it has been more than a year since the poor nun left Huangze Temple. Although the eldest princess often goes to Huangze Temple to visit her mother, after all, she can only come so many times a year. Normally, Master Jingchang takes great care of the poor nun.

Last year she was seriously ill. During her illness, she suddenly told the poor nun that she wanted the poor nun to help her find someone. At that time, the eldest princess's people suddenly rushed to Huangze Temple and asked the poor nun to leave immediately.

”

"..." I raised my eyebrows and immediately recalled that it was probably at the state banquet when the eldest princess revealed her "identity".

Although she used Jingxu to help me out, there was no guarantee that no one would actually go to Huangze Temple to investigate, so she naturally had to take care of Huangze Temple. In fact, if she followed the practices of people in the officialdom, she would only

She was afraid that Jingxu's life would be in danger, but the eldest princess was kind-hearted and did not want to kill innocent people indiscriminately, so she sent people to drive away Jingxu. If my guess is correct, she should have set up a tombstone for her to hide her from others.<

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It also saved her life.

Hearing this, I actually breathed a sigh of relief. Thinking back to Pei Yuanzhen, who was still cold and ruthless in the snow, I felt a little warm in my heart.

No matter...no matter what happens between me and her, she is a good girl after all.
To be continued...