Tan Ting:【……】

As he has grown up, this is the first time in his memory that someone has told him for sure that he has always been normal and perfect!

It's not his fault that he is different, it's "the crowd" that is wrong.

At a certain moment, Tan Tingxin Lake wrinkled slightly.

Those eyes were like ice and snow in spring, bit by bit melting into a pool of spring water. He heard himself say: "Mr. Shen, there are very few people with the same path in the world. I can't find them everywhere, and my heart is in a state of confusion. So what should I do?"

Shen Tang didn't pay attention to his emotional changes, but said openly: "What should we do? This is simple. In my opinion, everything in this world can be summarized in two sentences - a sudden wind blows up a pool of spring water?" What do you do to me? What do you do to me?】

[The word gregarious is inherently flawed.]

【Why is it normal to be gregarious? 】

【Mediocre talents need to be gregarious.】

[When you firmly believe that you are normal, then you look up at the men and women in this world, and every one of them is incomplete.] Shen Tang didn’t know how many years Tan Ting had been struggling with problems in her heart. As an outsider and bystander, she was quite The feeling of relaxation without back pain when standing and talking, [seeing one’s nature and knowing one’s heart, getting a glimpse of one’s true self.]

If you are firm in your true heart, you will naturally be able to wait for those who share the same ideals. Instead of hoping to go hand in hand with those who share the same ideals, you can draw on the strength of a firm true heart.

【My true self? Common people cannot see it with their blind eyes.】

Tan Ting shook his head slightly.

He thought that after years of cultivating his mind, his state of mind was neither strong nor weak. He had not avoided this weird body for many years, and could even mention it calmly to Shen Tang when he met him for the first time. But he didn't want to, with After Shen Tang's conversation, he found that his heart was shaking and he was more confused than before.

Shen Tang said: [It must be Spring Silkworm.]

Tan Ting raised his eyes in confusion: [Spring Silkworm?]

On the surface, Shen Tang was calm and confident, but in fact, he was in a panic and wanted to scratch his face. He was secretly annoyed that he had failed to stop the door with his bad words - if he said a few words, Tan Ting would not be confused again.

The focus of literary scholars lies in "heart".

Being trapped in your mind and dusty in your thoughts, as the saying goes, you are stuck in a corner. It’s good to be able to think about it on your own. But if you can’t think about it and even stop progressing, it would be a big sin. The ball of yarn that Shen Tang messed up by herself should also be taken care of by her. Untie it with your own hands.

Shen Tang organized his words and considered them again and again.

【Spring silkworms make cocoons and entangle themselves.】

Tan Ting's eyes gradually turned dark: [Trapped in a cocoon?]

Shen Tang asked Tan Ting: "How come you are not trapped in a cocoon? You are born like this. In your eyes, everyone in the world is half less, and in the eyes of the world, you are half more. But is there a possibility that the world is not less, and you are not more? In fact, you are not They are all complete existences, just like mountains, rivers, sun and moon, spring, summer, autumn and winter. They are very rare existences. Since it is normal, why would you resist?】

Judging from Qi Shan's description, Tan Ting has always been physically restrained. He believes in his heart that he should be a woman and deeply hates masculine characteristics. However, the world believes that he is a man because he has masculine characteristics and denies the female part. Tan Ting is resisting men. exists, but at the same time, because the secular world recognizes his male existence, he is able to practice. In troubled times, he needs this power to protect himself and even do more. The part of him that pursues women is denied by the world, and he resists the male part but yet need it...

The two are too contradictory and irreconcilable.

Isn’t this kind of entanglement and resistance the same thing as spring silkworms spinning silk?

Tan Ting has been cultivating his state of mind for many years, and it seems that he has confessed his true self in front of Shen Tang. In fact, all his words deny the male part that has always existed in him. How can he see his true self if he resists himself? So, he is A spring silkworm.

A spring silkworm that has been spinning silk for many years and is trapped in a cocoon.

Tan Ting raised his hand and looked at his palm, with many struggles appearing in his eyes.

【Shen Jun, but——】

[Nothing but!] Shen Tang looks easy-going on weekdays, but he is domineering and domineering at heart. [A literary scholar does not even dare to identify himself, which is cowardly. Mengyuan doesn't think he is too contradictory? When you think that you have too much body Part of the male characteristics, rather than what they should be, means that you think you are a heretic from the bottom of your heart. If you are a heretic, how can you find people who share the same path? Resist it, but need it, how can you not disturb yourself and fetter yourself? Tangun thought Woolen cloth?】

[Yuanliang told me before that your practice is all about bathing in the outdoors. Heaven and earth are natural, yin and yang are natural, all things are natural, and you are also one of nature. Therefore, there is neither more nor less. 】

The male is him, the female is she, and he is also he.

Tan Ting raised his head and covered his forehead to endure the excitement in his heart.

[If Mr. Shen were a commoner, would he think so? 】

Shen Tang imagined it carefully.

[I don’t really feel the same way in this world, but if I were you, I probably wouldn’t be troubled by this problem. I am heaven, I am earth, I am all living things, I am me. How can anyone resist themselves? If even I am myself If you don’t even like yourself and don’t acknowledge yourself, how lonely will this life be? Shouldn’t the first person you are looking for have to be yourself?]

Tan Ting seemed to hear something break slightly.

It seemed like a gust of wind came from somewhere, drifting deep into my heart, reaching the dark corners that no one had cared about before.

He raised his hand to cover his chest and was stunned for a long time.

Seeing him like this, Shen Tang thought about whether he should try another way of talking. After all, he was a friend signed by Qi Yuanliang himself. It would be hard to explain if he was deceived by him.

Tan Ting asked: [Does Mr. Shen also like me this much?]

Shen Tang: [Are you asking me if I am narcissistic? 】

Is not this nonsensical?

If a person is not narcissistic, why should he be in love?

Look at her face, which is popular in the capital, and the empire she has built over the past ten years. She has money, a car, a house, and a sense of career! Ask your conscience, so many attributes are superimposed on one person. Can't impress people? Not enough to fascinate thousands of people?

Shen Tang doesn’t believe it!

She nodded firmly and admitted: [Yes, I am very narcissistic.]

Narcissism has kept her mental state stable for decades!

Tan Ting tightly closed his eyes filled with spring water, and the turmoil that had been accumulated in his chest for many years seemed to be completely vented at this moment. When he opened his eyes again, Tan Ting gave Shen Tang a deep salute: [Fortunately, Mr. Shen wakes up, the common people have become enlightened in their hearts, and may need to retreat for several months. Worldly affairs can wait until they are released from isolation?】

The popular translation means that he can't go to work yet. He has to go to study for a few months and then start working after the study is over.

Shen Tang asked: [Retreat?]

Tan Ting said seriously: [Learn how to be narcissistic.]

Shen Tang almost choked on his own saliva.

Putting aside how ridiculous this statement is, do you still need to learn how to be narcissistic?

Isn’t narcissism something that is innate?

Do you need a reason to love yourself?

Need to learn?

Qishan in the side hall had no choice but to hold his forehead. Tan Mengyuan was taken into the ditch by his master! However, no matter how weird this ditch is, it is wider than the small puddle that Tan Ting squatted in before, which is not a bad thing after all. With this, At the same time, I felt a little relieved.

Given Tan Mengyuan's character, his obsession with himself should be less severe.

At least, maybe, it should be...

You won’t always want to sterilize him...right?

Qi Shan has no confidence in this.

Tan Ting still needs to be careful. He takes turns to stand guard with both eyes when sleeping, and he has to abstain from alcohol on weekdays. He must not give this guy an opportunity to take advantage of him! Qi Shan secretly prepares sufficient mental preparation.

Tan Ting said he was in seclusion, but in fact he was still wandering around outside.

Because I had no place to live, I could only go to my friends to pray for good.

Those praying for kindness are numb: [...No, why?]

Tan Ting lowered his eyes and said: "You can transform into a woman, but others can't. Qi Yuanliang, you don't want me to stay with other colleagues of yours? It's inconvenient whether your colleagues are male or female."

Qishan's mouth twitched slightly.

Tan Ting smiled lightly, a smile that was enough to shake the color of heaven and earth.

Qishan doesn’t do this at all: [Is it convenient for me?]

Tan Ting suppressed his smile and attacked: [More suitable than them.]

Qi Shan put one hand on the hilt of the sword, with a dark face, and the scene of sterilization surgery was already playing in his mind: [The Dakang country has a national border that spans the entire northwest. There are many places for you to live. I can place you wherever you want. , it doesn’t have to be under the same roof!]

Tan Ting's eyes are full of waves, his crescent eyebrows and starry eyes are looking forward to the flowing light.

[A Dharma Protector is also needed in critical moments.] He sighed. He always thought that he had cultivated his mind to perfection, but the delay in his realm was due to the lack of opportunities for enlightenment. After talking with Shen Jun today, he realized that he was on the wrong path, [The sea embraces all rivers, Tolerance is a virtue.】

He should have noticed this long ago.

All these years have been wasted.

Tan Ting looked at Qi Shan with a bit of resentment in his eyes. Qi Shan's scalp was numb when he looked at him, and he wanted to run away with his sword.

【Why do you blame me?】

[If you hadn’t run away back then, I might have realized this. Before Mr. Shen, you were the most unruly person I have ever seen in my life regarding men and women.] Tan Ting’s words were quite unreasonable, but his character In this way, Qishan doesn't want to argue with him.

Qi Shan said: [I will be disabled if I don’t run.]

All his friends are sick.

Everyone wanted to take advantage of his illness to kill him, and even wanted to get a few parts without risking his life. In comparison, enemies could bring more warmth. Thinking of this, Qi Shan felt that it was not easy after so many years.

Tan Ting sighed: [I just want someone with the same philosophy.]

A fellow traveler who understands him.

But now I am no longer alone.

Praying for good: [……]

He had wanted to suggest that Tan Ting go and have his brain checked, but he didn't expect that Tan Ting's long-standing illness would be cured by his master.
To be continued...