Ling Feng never thought that he would make a mistake after drinking. From the day he was reborn, he lived alone. It was not until he came to France that he had his first roommate, Anelka.

For more than eight years since his rebirth, Ling Feng has been holding on to this amazing secret alone. He has not told anyone, and I am afraid that no one will believe him.

It is a very painful thing to keep a secret for a long time. No friend can tell you, and no one can guide him in the direction of progress. Although he has many teammates now, no one knows the deepest secret in Ling Feng's heart.

After accumulating this for a long time, Ling Feng's psychology has actually been under heavy pressure. Therefore, he suppressed his future opponents in the first game, and fell into confusion after the suppression. All of this has brought negative impacts on Ling Feng's psychology, and in severe cases, it can even cause very terrible psychological diseases, such as schizophrenia.

It was not until the emergence of Basten that Ling Feng found the path that suited him under the guidance of the world's top striker, but in life, this shadow will grow deeper and deeper...

Under the long-term pressure, Ling Feng has spoken in his sleep, but no one has heard it or understood it, because he always speaks it in Chinese. Ling Feng will not worry about others hearing it in China, and no one can understand it in France. Besides, Anelka slept even more deadly than him...

Siyue's appearance was a complete coincidence, but it was also an opportunity. Ling Feng did not intend to hide this matter from Siyue. It was just that now was not the time, and no one was willing to believe this thing that was almost talked about at night. However, after saying it after being drunk, it could be considered a kind of will of heaven.

"Is Xuan'er the girlfriend of my brother? She must be very beautiful and considerate, otherwise my brother wouldn't have read her name in his dreams." Siyue's words were vague and she didn't know what she was thinking.

"Xuan'er, Xuan'er!" Ling Feng squatted on the ground with his head in his hands. This was the first time in decades that someone mentioned this name in his ear, the name that made him dream of.

"Did your brother not tell Yue'er?" Siyue's heart sank to the bottom of the valley. It turned out that his guesses were all right. Ling Feng had really had someone in his heart, but his brother refused to tell him that he was still an outsider in his heart and had no right to know his deepest secret.

"Since my brother doesn't want to say it, then I'll leave. I hope my brother and sister Xuan'er will live happily." Siyue held back her tears and walked out the door without looking back, but she hoped that her brother could call her behind her.

When he was about to step out of the door, Siyue's heart was broken and tears flowed down her face. It turned out that she was really not worth remembering for this.

Suddenly, a pair of powerful hands hugged himself from behind. He felt Ling Feng's head gently leaning on his shoulders, and a dreamy voice came from his ears: "Siyue, don't leave, brother will tell you."

Siyue nodded. Her request was very simple, as long as her brother didn't think she was an outsider.

The two of them sat down together. Ling Feng was used to sitting very close to Siyue. The faint fragrance on the girl made him feel very relaxed. Moreover, he treated Siyue as his own sister from the bottom of his heart, and he didn't think there was anything wrong with this.

"You guessed it right, I'm a person who has experienced this world." Ling Feng didn't know how to describe his own situation. Just say this: "To be clear, I have lived once in this world. At that time, I was also a player. Two years later, I participated in the World Youth Championship in Malaysia with the National Youth Team, and reached the finals, becoming famous in one fell swoop."

Siyue opened her eyes wide and looked at her brother incredibly. Now she was a little confused. What was going on?

"Is it strange?" Ling Feng smiled bitterly: "As a young and powerful player, I received invitations from many European clubs. The one I was most interested in at that time was the Saint-Germain Club, but for special reasons I did not fulfill my wish to play football in France. This is also the reason why I chose Saint-Germain now."

After a pause, Ling Feng continued: "But in a domestic club, I found that I really had no motivation. It was not my brother who bragged. The players around me were too different from my level. And the most important thing is that at that time, I didn't understand this society at all and didn't understand what football was!"

Siyue didn't say anything, but just looked at Ling Feng's somewhat hideous face quietly. She knew that her brother needed to vent her heart at this time.

"I originally thought that a player, just by playing well and performing well in the league, could achieve his biggest goal and enter the national team competition, but then I realized how outrageous I was wrong!"

Ling Feng punched the table. This was the first time he had come into contact with the ugliness of human nature. At this time, Siyue leaned gently on Ling Feng's body. The sudden warm and fragrant soft jade made Ling Feng's heart tremble and his emotions calmed down.

"Sorry, Siyue, I'm a little excited."

Siyue just smiled and didn't say anything. At this time, she knew that she wanted to play the role of a good listener and didn't need any words, just listen patiently.

"It turns out that football is not as bright as I imagined. Some dirty things on the back are disgusting. The results on the court are not exchanged for the players' efforts. Which game they win and lose, or even how many goals they lose, is decided by the club's senior management. The players are just tools for them to make money. I saw my teammates with their own eyes, taking a dozen or so dollars from others, and then starting a negative game on the court. Of course, there are also referees, I don't know what benefits they have received, and they try their best to favor in the game... and there are many more, and I don't want to recall them anymore.

"I'm not saying that I'm noble, but I really can't stand what they do. This is how Chinese football is ruined by several people in power!

"I have tried to resist because of my reputation, and the club dare not publicly treat me, but my teammates no longer pass the ball to me. No matter how powerful a person is on the court, it is limited, especially when teammates are alienated from you and the coach no longer trusts you.

"It was not until later that I realized that all this was aimed at me on purpose. They dared not deal with me openly, so they could only do it in secret, but at that time, I was still too young.

"The poor performance on the court has caused me to be accused by fans and the media, but later I realized that these accusations were intentionally arranged...

"I'm very disappointed that no one in the world supports me. After I didn't score in seven consecutive games, a fan rushed into the court and spat hard on my face!"

Siyue didn't say anything, but just grabbed Ling Feng's hand tightly. At this moment, she felt the despair in Ling Feng at that time.

"That night, I drank a lot of alcohol, and then I hit a telephone pole in the suburbs while driving. When I woke up, my left leg was ruined!"

"Ah?!" Siyue finally couldn't help but speak out at this time.

"In other words," Ling Feng smiled bitterly: "My football career will end from now on."

Siyue lowered her head, but just tightened her hand that was grabbing Ling Feng.

"Just when I was hospitalized, I met Xuan'er." When Qin Xuan was mentioned, a smile appeared on Ling Feng's face, and Siyue's heart sank. It turned out that Xuan'er was so important in her brother's heart that she could not forget even after many years.

"Xuan'er's name is Qin Xuan. She is a medical university student. When I was hospitalized, she happened to be intern in the hospital. Do you understand the internship? Different from internship, internship and internship are two different things. Internship is an inspection and familiarity at the unit before work. There are many things, and the work done is basically the same as that of formal members. Internship is just going to the internship unit to study. Every day, the work is just to follow the doctor on duty to check a room, see how the doctor diagnoses and treats patients, and helps the doctors. So the internship work is very easy, and she often comes to chat with me..."

Ling Feng talked about his past with others for the first time and was very excited, especially when talking about Qin Xuan. The girl's unruly and cuteness has always been Ling Feng's greatest joy and pain in his heart...

My thoughts leaped for twenty years without realizing them, and returned to his situation at the hospital at that time, and remembered Qin Xuan's cute expression...

"I just arrived at the obstetrics department to see how I delivered the baby. Oh, it's so disgusting! Do you know that caesarean section is so scary, and I took the baby out of my hair in a bloody way. Oh, I almost vomited at that time, and I'm still dizzy now! I will definitely not have a baby in the future!"

"Do you know, we are usually bored in class! An old professor, either a man or a woman, haha, I'm talking nonsense. I mean that all old men and women come to class. When they come, they whisper a lot, don't know what they are saying, and what's even more unforgivable is that they all speak dialects! I'm not a person here, but I can't understand it! Don't they know that they must speak Mandarin during class?"

"I participated in our school's drama club, it's fun! Our drama club is very powerful. We have won awards at the National College Students' Drama Festival! I'll tell you to perform again next time. You must go, don't say no! Oh, because we are all so familiar with each other, just go!"

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Seeing Ling Feng immersed himself in the words of Qin Xuan, Siyue also smiled. According to what her brother said, he had never contacted a girl at that time, so he had no tricks. At the same time, she sighed in her heart. Fortunately, Ling Feng had a bizarre experience, otherwise he would not have saved himself in Paris. So without Ling Feng's rescue, what would he become? Revenge? I'm afraid he would not even have a life.

For Siyue, death is not a terrible thing, but the most terrible thing is not death, but the loss of physical and dignity. Girls like her may also live a life of betrayaling their bodies like those prostitutes standing on the streets and alleys.

Thinking of this, Siyue suddenly felt very satisfied. God gave Ling Feng such an opportunity, so why did she also give herself a chance? Since she could stay with her brother, why should she be jealous of that girl?
Chapter completed!