In the dark and narrow room, only the computer monitor was lit.

The man was squatting on the seat, with large piles of household garbage scattered around him, and at his hand was a hill-like pile of instant noodle boxes.

Keyboard and mouse clicks sound at a rapid frequency.

"Hit and hit, hit the weak point, you idiot! I said hit the weak point! The abdomen, the abdomen! Are you deaf or can't understand human language! Fuck!" The man cursed, and the curses of his teammates could be heard in the headphones.

The monster on the screen flipped over and crushed the game character controlled by the man to death. No teammates came to help him before his health reached the bottom.

"Are you blind? I'm already dead! I need treatment!"

However, no one responded to him, and the voice in the headset suddenly cut off. The captain muted the team.

In the reply box, messages from several teammates popped up. They were all swearing at him. He laughed angrily, and just as he was about to curse back, he found that he had been kicked out of the team.

There is a message prompt for personal contact in the game. It is a former teammate. Click on it:

Aren't you bragging that your ex-girlfriend is your current idol? Just go home and play puzzle games with her, idiot!

The two words "idol" struck a chord with him accurately.

The man slammed the keyboard hard. The same instant noodle box fell down, and the soup was all over the floor and even splashed on his trousers.

He quickly got up and found a wet towel to wipe it off. If he left any traces, he might be kicked out of the apartment by the landlord.

When did it start? My life was a mess. I was hiding in the apartment, playing games day and night, not going to work, eating instant noodles to satisfy my hunger when I was hungry, accumulating garbage and being too lazy to go out to throw it away, and it gradually rotted.

Give off a foul odor.

He was used to it, but he didn't notice that the person who came to do door-to-door sales a few days ago had a formulaic friendly smile, and the moment he opened the door, he looked at him like he was scorning a rat in the gutter, with an ugly face.

"Damn it!" Thinking of this, I felt very angry and irritated, "Damn it! Damn it! Damn it!"

Cursing constantly won't make you feel better.

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Last year, that is, early October 2011.

The fifteen or sixteen-year-old boy entered his room by falsely claiming to be the landlord's son. Then he locked the door and sprayed him with the prepared anti-wolf spray until tears flowed from his eyes. During the struggle, he was knocked down with a hard object.

.When he woke up again, the room was in a mess, and the phone was broken into two halves on the ground.

Although the police were called immediately, since no property was lost and the only loss was a mobile phone, the two police officers asked a few questions as usual and then went back, and there was no further news from them.

Until one day, I accidentally saw a promotional poster of Nogizaka46 in a video store. One of the members looked strangely familiar. When I got home at night, I remembered that it seemed to be my ex-girlfriend. I remembered that I had left a group photo. But after searching the room, there was nothing

did not find.

(ex){}&/"Starting from this month, I will no longer give you living expenses. If you don't come back, you can take care of it yourself!"

He gradually tightened his grip on the phone, and his finger bones turned white. The two phones had broken into two before his eyes, but now, no matter how hard he tried, the object in his hand showed no sign of cracking.

He threw the phone to the ground with a crisp sound. The phone still didn't fall apart as he imagined, but the screen cracked like spider webs.

The nameless fire burned stronger and stronger in his heart, from the inside out, almost burning all the residue in his body.

After work and friends, the tattered rag-like family ties have become worthless. He has nothing left.

...No. No. There is one more thing.

He hurriedly picked up the phone and kept sending text messages to another person. However, there was no reply.

After the breakup, he remembered the other party's mobile phone number and email address, and wrote these on a note, which he used as a bookmark and stuck in the inside page of a novel.

After he lost his job, he often sent messages. It almost became a daily habit, like eating and drinking.

Good morning. Have you eaten? Do you still remember what we did before? Are you an idol? I miss you. Can we meet again? Do you have any money? Can you lend it to me for emergencies? My account is level 80

Yes! I found rare material today! Good afternoon. I bought your group’s single CD and saw you in it! Do you still like to read comics? xxx is so interesting! The resident downstairs secretly keeps a dog, why don’t you die.

Good night. Have you slept? Sorry, my phone broke two days ago and I have replaced it with a new one. Do you still like the cyan color? My neighbor complained and said that the room stinks. Haha, I really want to kill him.

Are you watching?

Never received a reply. Not even once.

It must be that one, he comforted himself in his heart, it must be that the idol is too busy with work, he can understand.

But the anxiety in my heart became more and more serious.

, she occasionally appears in one or two scenes, she is full of youth. But she is like a dead animal floating in the mire. Dirty and smelly.

There must be something wrong, because not long ago, I was with her. We had dinner together, went to karaoke, watched movies, and even took photos of her face. She was obviously so happy at that time, and the world suddenly turned around.

Broken into two pieces, he survived in the shadows and could only look at the bright and beautiful other side.

What went wrong?

I want to see her, he thought.

She is too busy with work and has no time to reply, so I have to take the initiative to see her. This is the tenderness and consideration of my ex-boyfriend. She will be moved to tears, and then we can start over as before. Then, then...

Then, I can start again.
Chapter completed!