I really want to hold her in my arms and be as loving and affectionate with her as before, but I don't have the will and strength, so I feel at a loss.
Suddenly I realized that Si Weiqi's heart had mended all the flaws in her own feelings, like a broken mirror reunited, reaching a state of perfection that was more transparent and transparent than before.
"Lin Kun, do you know why I saved you back then?" Si Weiqi suddenly asked.
"Back then? When you were a kid?"
"That's right."
"Why?"
"At that time, I had not yet understood the great path, and I kept receiving backlash from my inner demons. It was as if there was a divine fetus and a demon seed competing with each other in my body. As a result, you accidentally broke into Yuling's realm and was infected by the demon seed.
By some mistake, I saved you, but it made me no longer affected by my own demon seed."
"Is there such a strange reason?"
"You don't believe me even if I tell you. Maybe this is fate." Si Weiqi smiled, "Who would have thought that I would fall in love with that crybaby kid back then."
Although Si Weiqi's words are somewhat metaphysical, it does not mean that Si Weiqi does not really love me, but that her love has transcended the worldly love between men and women. If she does not pursue a physical relationship, it may be a difficult thing to do.
A metaphorical yet deeper feeling, but not the one I had always expected.
The spiritual connection between us enables us to understand each other's subtle thoughts without speaking.
"Can you feel it?" Si Weiqi asked softly.
"Um."
I nodded.
"Lin Kun, forgive me, I really love you, but I really can't convince myself that I have my own selfish motives and I am using you."
I smiled. In fact, I could vaguely feel the contradiction in Si Weiqi's heart. I had no doubt about her love for me, but behind this love, there was something she needed more.
It's dependence.
This kind of reliance will not be the reliance of "it's easy to enjoy the shade under the big tree", nor is it the so-called happy marriage and family happiness after "finding a good man to marry", but behind every successful woman there is a man who silently protects her.
She needs my protection so that she can do her own thing without any distractions.
I smiled bitterly and spread my hands: "I know, I have always known that as long as I am the most important in your heart, it is enough, nothing else matters."
A loving smile escaped from the corner of Si Weiqi's lips, and she moved into my arms, but did not speak.
The two enjoyed the intoxicating feeling of direct spiritual contact, but there were no ripples of love as in the past, it was just a sublimated spiritual connection.
I didn't have the urge to be as lustful as before, so I let her touching body stick close to me, silently enjoying the intoxicating taste.
Si Weiqi slowly moved away her delicate body, her beautiful eyes flashed with holy brilliance, and she said softly and tenderly: "I want you to know how grateful I am to you for letting me experience the taste of love. And I will always have the only
You are a husband, understand?!"
I let out a long sigh of relief, laughed and said, "It's impossible not to understand. How can I receive the message from your heart without missing a beat?"
Si Weiqi smiled lightly and said softly: "Yes."
Then, Si Weiqi took out something from her arms, which still had a warm body temperature.
"What's this?"
"You'll know if you take a look."
I took it and saw that it was a jade plaque.
"Jade plaque?" I looked at Si Weiqi doubtfully, wondering what the meaning of this jade plaque was.
"Idiot, I'm going to turn over your brand today." Si Weiqi smiled slightly and leaned on my shoulder, "Can you agree?"
I felt happy and couldn't help laughing, "Sister Qi, it's rare for you to be so proactive. I will serve you well tonight."
"De Xing!" Si Weiqi said calmly, "This jade medal was given to me by my mother. It should be kept until after marriage. However, I have always hidden it and refused to give it to you. Now I regard it as the most important thing."
A precious gift for you, do whatever you want with it."
I stuffed the jade sign into my arms and said with a smile: "Sister Qi gave me the most precious gift! However, this thing is not very good and not free. I want to get close to you, but I have to turn over the sign. There are so many
Trouble, if you don’t turn it over, why don’t you get rejected by me?”
Si Weiqi glanced at me and said angrily: "You are such a person, how can people be willing to treat you like that!" Zaidou smiled slightly and said: "Remember, I will always be your wife and belong to you alone."
The so-called turning of cards is a method used by emperors in ancient times to choose concubines and their wives. Each brand represents a concubine. The emperor will turn over the brand whichever he likes. Whichever brand is turned over, the emperor will be lucky to have a concubine. Some.
The red-brand girls in brothels also use this method.
The hierarchy of the harem in the Tang Dynasty was already very complicated. In addition to the queen, there were the "four ladies" of the first rank, namely the noble concubine, the concubine Shu, the concubine De, and the concubine Xian; and the ninth concubine of the second rank: Zhaoyi, Zhaorong, Zhaoyuan, and Xiuyi.
, repair face, repair yuan
, Chongyi, Chongrong, Chongyuan; twenty-seventh wife: nine people of the twenty-seventh generation: Jieyu (the third grade); nine beauties (the fourth grade); nine talented people (the fifth grade); eighty-one royal wives: Baolin
Twenty-seven people (sixth grade); two royal ladies
Seventeen people (seventh rank); twenty-seven colorful girls (eighth rank). In the Tang Dynasty, there was a certain order for the attendants to accompany the emperor to bed, which was determined according to the full and waning moon. The first fifteen days of each month were for the full moon, and the last fifteen days were for the full moon.
Days are getting shorter and shorter. So from the beginning
From the 15th to the 15th, it is the turn of the person with the lower status to the person with the higher status, and from the 16th to the end of the month, the turn of the person with the higher status is the turn of the person with the lower status. The queen and the third wife have priority, and those below the ninth concubine are "nine and nine", that is,
Every nine people share the blessing for one night.
To be more specific, the first to the ninth day of the lunar month are the eighty-one concubines, and every nine people share one night; the tenth to the twelfth day are the twenty-seven concubines, and every nine people share one night; the thirteenth is the nine concubines; the fourteenth is the concubine.
Three ladies; fifteen is exclusive to the queen. Similarly, sixteen is exclusive to the queen; seventeen is the third lady; eighteen is the ninth concubine; nineteen to twenty-one is the twenty-seventh concubine, and every nine people share one night;
From twenty-two to thirty, there are eighty-one wives, and every nine people share one night.
Generally speaking, the queen gets two nights, the third lady gets two nights, the married woman gets six nights, and the royal wife gets eighteen nights. It is a fair distribution for the concubines, but for the emperor, he can neither choose freely, but also has to deal with many at once.
This is really not a pleasant thing. Although the concubines in the harem enter
The rules for serving in the palace are very clear, but because there are so many concubines, and from time to time some of them are unwell or menstrual, so choosing the person to be responsible for each night is cumbersome and prone to malpractice. Therefore, most of the palaces have a "female historian" who is responsible for their duties.
The order in which concubines enter the palace.
In the Qing Dynasty, the bedside system was even more complete. Every day at dinner, the eunuchs in the honoring room would prepare a meal for any concubines who were prepared for the occasion.
There is a green-headed plaque with the names of the concubines written on it. The pattern of the plaque is the same as that introduced by foreign officials in Beijing. There may be more than ten or dozens of plaques. The eunuch puts these plaques on a large silver plate and prepares dinner.
When the time comes, it is also called the meal card. After the emperor has finished his dinner,
, the eunuch is about to kneel down in front of the emperor. If the emperor is unlucky, he says: "Go." If he likes it, he takes the card and turns it over so that the back of the card is upward, and the eunuch retreats. Give the card to another eunuch, this is
The eunuch who is responsible for carrying the concubine and placing her on the royal couch. At that time
The emperor was already lying on the imperial couch, and the lower end of the quilt was spread out. The eunuch carrying the concubine took off all her upper and lower clothes, wrapped her in a cloak, carried her to the imperial couch, took off the cloak, and the concubine climbed up from the bottom of the quilt naked.
The manager of the Jingsi Room and the eunuch who carried the concubine were both waiting outside the window.
If the time was too long, the steward would sing: It's time. If the emperor didn't respond, he would sing again. After doing this three times, the emperor ordered the eunuch to enter the bedroom. The eunuch dragged the concubine out from under the emperor's feet, still wrapped her in the big cloak, and carried her on her back.
Then he left. After leaving, the eunuch in charge knelt down and asked for orders: "Do you want to stay or not?"
The emperor said: "Don't keep it." The chief eunuch went to the concubine and gently pressed the acupoints on her buttocks, and all the semen flowed out. The emperor said: "Keep it." The chief eunuch then wrote it down in a book: on a certain day of a certain month and at a certain time, the emperor
Concubine Xing. Take this as proof of pregnancy for future reference.
Test. This is a custom made by the ancestors in the palace ban of the Qing Dynasty. If the emperor lived in the Old Summer Palace, then such rituals would be abolished, and he could love you at any time, just like ordinary people. However, the presentation of meal cards was still the same. Therefore, most emperors lived in
There is a lot of time in the Old Summer Palace.
When Si Weiqi saw that I seemed to be in my old self again, she was not angry but happy. She stretched out her hand to caress my cheek lovingly, kissed my mouth gently, and Xi Muzi said: "I will remember it."
I looked up to the sky and laughed, reaching out and pinching her cheeks. Si Weiqi's beautiful eyes lit up, revealing an indescribable sweet smile.
The night was uneventful, and it seemed that none of us took our bet with Si Weiyu to heart the next day.
My face was calm, full of the leisurely atmosphere of walking in the mountains and forests, and I walked slowly to the mourning hall, only to find that Si Weiyu had arrived early in the morning. I smiled calmly and said: "Actually, whether you win or lose, the hardest thing to let go of is not the victory itself, but the victory itself.
It is the human heart, towards
Whether you are good or evil determines the importance of victory or defeat. For me, victory or defeat is just a passing cloud, but Si Weiqi is a wild horse. To control her, you must use extraordinary means. You must
Don’t really defeat her.”
Si Weiyu said calmly: "Of course I know how powerful Si Weiqi is, and I am fully prepared. Your words today have made me look at you differently."
I nodded happily and said: "That's good, you are worthy of being the eldest sister!"
"If you win a prize, you will also hate others if you love them. This is the eternal truth!" Si Weiyu said with a smile, "Si Weiqi is indeed a rare genius through the ages, but her biggest weakness is that she has feelings. Shakya
To teach people that all four elements are empty is to understand clearly that they are trapped in the suffering of the world's emotions. To escape the suffering and gain happiness, the only way is to forget the emotions. And the emotions come from the flesh, and they can only be achieved by abandoning the flesh."
Si Weiyu is a monk, so she has the highest right to speak on this point. In desperation, I remained silent.
After a while, he said: "Have you decided on today's game?"
Chapter completed!