I'm still defending myself.

Find a relatively suitable excuse to explain why I dare not look directly into her eyes.

Wang Yuxuan chuckled, "Okay, even if the light is dazzling, then we can turn it off, right? Anyway, the light reflected in the window is enough for us to see each other in the room."

She knew I was making excuses, but she did not expose it, but chose to compromise and continue her experiment by turning off the light.

Those who are serious can not tolerate any flaws. Of course, this is what Wang Yuxuan, who is sitting next to me now.

"Don't worry, what else can I see if it's dark?" I pulled the corner of my mouth forcibly and said to her: "I've adapted to it almost, I can try it again."

"I can do it, as long as you can look me in the eyes and say the words you just said again."

She just looked at me like this. The distance between us was very close, especially when no one spoke, the room was empty and quiet, and we could even feel each other's breathing...

A warm and strange atmosphere appeared at this moment.

The air conditioner was clearly turned on in the room, but I still felt the heat. The heat emitted from my heart hit her already rosy cheeks. The clear color looked like a ripe apple, making people unable to help but want to take a bite.

Gradually, my breathing became a little rapid.

I knew this was wrong, and I kept controlling myself. I took a deep breath. I turned my head to the side. After a moment, I turned around and grinned a curve at the corner of my mouth, saying to her as relaxed as possible:

"It should be OK now."

Wang Yuxuan raised her eyebrows and signaled me to continue talking.

"Cough..." I coughed lightly, and I spoke while recalling: "My love for you is more about brother and sister. If I am as big as Shi Guangqi now, I will be possessed by you, but I am not, so..."

"stop."

Wang Yuxuan stopped me, "Your eyes dodge again."

"I don't have one, I can guarantee it."

"Can you see your own eyes?" she asked.

"I really can't see it...but at least I'll feel it?"

When I said this, I had a slight skeptical attitude, one was because of her determination, and more because of my insincere words.

"Then what are you hesitating about?"

"I don't."

"Look, now I have been led by my nose all the way. You will just defend whatever I say. It's very pale and powerless. Do you know?"

“……”

I know.

And I gradually recognized her.

But, I won't admit it.

What will be waiting for her after admitting will be greater harm, and what will be waiting for me will be another kind of entanglement; I finally got out of Beijing, and now I don’t want to have any involvement with people or things there anymore.

Furthermore, there is a March agreement between Tong Xue and I. I see and remember all her affection for me and the things she has given. To be honest, I can let anyone down in my relationship and be a bastard in anyone, but I can't do that with Tong Xue.

So, no matter what, today, I will weave this lie, even if it goes against my true intentions, even if the girl in front of me can see that I am insincere!

"What, are you thinking of an excuse to defend yourself?" Seeing that I was speechless for a long time, Wang Yuxuan asked again.

"No."

I shook my head and said, "I can't do anything if you don't believe me. I can't tie it up for you. Is this kind of violent means to make you believe it?"

"oh."

After she responded, we began to remain silent again.

In order to avoid the atmosphere not long ago, I did not go to see her again this time. I got out of bed by myself, walked to the window, looked at the streets of the ancient town, and saw the neon lights in the distance, leaving only a back view for her...

We were all like this for a long time. For a few moments, I wanted to turn around and say something to her, whether it was comforting or justification, but when I thought of her eyes, I stopped her again tonight.

At this moment, I really hope that a third party will appear to reconcile the atmosphere between us.

But Shi Guangqi was very lonely when she left, and it was very likely that she would not come back all night.

The lights in the distance are not as good as those in Beijing; just like us in the youth hostel room, we are not as good as those in the rental house. Just changing a city and changing a room, what we face is completely different...

"Are you so tired of me?"

Finally, Wang Yuxuan spoke.

The voice was neither sad nor happy, as if she was talking about something that had nothing to do with her.

Her heart must have been hurt, and it was hurt by the knife I used to turn into silence.

This time, I turned around, and the distance between us was less than ten steps. "You are my junior sister, how could I get tired of you?"

"You know I'm not referring to this."

"Girl, it's not worth it."

"It's always right to have a result." She replied faintly, and suddenly raised her head, like a proud white swan. "Chen Erlu, I'll leave this today. After I leave this gate, I will no longer be a Wang Meigui."

I clearly got the result I wanted, why does my heart hurt?

Her ability to say this proves that she has seen through some things and made her own decisions for it; I should be happy for her, because she finally no longer has to worry about gains and losses for a man like me.

But the facts are exactly the opposite.

I opened my mouth, and I didn't say anything, just nodded.

"I hope you won't regret it."

After saying that, she stood up from the bed, turned around very decisively, and walked out of the room in just a few steps.

I stood there with moist eyes.

On this map called life, everyone has their own destination and their own path to go. We keep making decisions, and then we will feel relieved or regretful about a decision... and repeat this repeatedly and never get tired of it.

If Lao Wang hadn't mentioned me in front of her countless times, if our contact only stopped before sending her to the airport, if we hadn't walked through many streets, wouldn't it be like this between us?

On the night before leaving Beijing, I said goodbye to her far away by Houhai Lake. Now, that farewell alone is actually happening in front of me.

She said that after she walked out of this door, she was no longer Wang Meigui.

There are no more white roses in my world.
Chapter completed!