Thanks.

I am thanking Zhang Yao for being able to leave her old community to accompany me in her busy schedule; I’m sorry, I’m going to tell her what I’ll do after I rush home tomorrow.

We are couples, honesty is the most basic principle. Even if I don’t want her to know about that matter in my heart, but she has come, I have no reason to hide anything.

Since fate has arranged such a script, I should accept it. If you can't escape, you can't escape.

Sure enough, after hearing what I said, Zhang Yao looked at me in confusion and asked, "Why do you want to say sorry?"

What should come always comes. I let out a long sigh and took a step forward. After getting closer to her, I put my hands on her shoulders, lowered my head slightly, staring at her eyes that looked like autumn water.

"We are in love with each other, right?"

Zhang Yao frowned slightly: "Chen Mo, if we don't love each other, is it possible to get together?"

"I just want to make sure, and I want to tell you too, I love you and long for you to be there for the rest of my life."

"Hey...what's wrong with you?"

Looking at the woman in front of me, I couldn't help but wonder whether fate is fair or favorable to me? It allowed me to have her, and it also made me lose her. As for this time... I seem to face the second loss.

Zhang Yao is very unusual. She is the small number of people who can stand at the top of this city. Her social status is enough for many people to spend their whole life, or even look up to them for several lifetimes.

However, in our emotional world, Zhang Yao is an ordinary woman. She is jealous and occasionally has small-mindedness. Everything is because of love. Love makes her fall from the clouds into the mortal world and is possessed by an ordinary man like me.

With a long sigh, I put down my hand that was on her shoulders and then turned my back.

Because I dare not look at her next expression.

"I'm going home once tomorrow, and I may not be able to come back at any time... because my grandma is leaving, I'm going to let her look at me for the last time when she's dead... and her granddaughter-in-law whom she is thinking about."

"I'll book a ticket now, and I'll go back with you tomorrow!"

Zhang Yao's firm voice came from behind shortly after I finished speaking.

She is really kind and can really leave a lot of things because of love... I couldn't help but ask myself in my heart, why did I lie to Tong Xue to her parents at home? If there was no such lie, tomorrow would I be able to take my current favorite woman to my grandma's sickbed, let her hold our hands and leave the world without any regrets.

It's so fucking sad.

I waved my hand and didn't turn around: "I'm sorry, I...I'm going to take Tong Xue back. You know that lie. In my parents' hearts, she is their daughter-in-law. I can't confess to them at such an occasion. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... I know this is unfair to you and it hurts you enough.

But I really have no way, Yaoyao, I hope you can understand, and I hope you can see through the man you love how unbearable it was in the past. When communicating with your parents, I was unable to be honest. Maybe you looked at me accurately at the beginning. I was so fucking bastard."

I did not hide or modify these words. I told her whatever I thought, which was so straightforward and disgusting.

The stone that blocked my chest fell to the ground, and at the same time, my heart hurts very much at this moment.

I dare not think about what will happen next. The future is getting blurry before my eyes. The woman who was about to look back in the deep sea turned her head back again... She took a step and gradually disappeared from my sight.

Leave that deep sea only.

Zhang Yao has no words.

I dare not look back and see what she looks like, nor do I dare to imagine what she looks like at this moment.

......

In the gentle evening breeze of Beijing, we were just getting along like this, my back was facing her, and she was silent.

The silent atmosphere was very unbearable, but I had to endure such an atmosphere. I had to accept all this myself... Taking a deep breath, I took out a cigarette box from my pocket.

After pulling out a piece and igniting it, just taking a sip, Zhang Yao behind me finally spoke to me, "I understand."

The four words make people unable to hear her emotions, and it is a bit dull and terrible.

I wish she could cry or scold her at this time. In this way, I could still clearly feel her emotions, and then take her home without any consequences!

But, she was sensible and did not do this.

It is so calm that it makes people feel distressed and pity.

After taking a puff of the cigarette, I trembled and put down my hand holding the cigarette, "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry, at this time, the world is big, not as big as grandma... You can make this decision to prove that you are a filial man, and I should understand you."

Hearing the sound, I turned around in surprise, but what I saw was her back.

It turned out that she had turned around at some point. I took a heavy breath of cigarette and sniffed out a slightly spicy smoke. I threw the remaining cigarette on the ground, took another step, and hugged her in my arms.

"Thank you for your understanding... I also know that at this time, you will not feel good. You will be responsible for the mistakes I made. I want to tear myself up with such selfish behavior."

Zhang Yao's body trembled slightly, and she followed her and broke free from my arms.

"Nothing, I said everything, I can understand you."

After a pause, she continued, "But I won't forgive you."

When I heard the second sentence, I knew that Tong Xue's words had come true.

I pulled the corners of my mouth and forced myself to smile and said to her, "You really shouldn't forgive me. Who in this world can be so great? Unless she doesn't love me."

What a ridiculous word.”

"It is also because of this word that makes people no longer look like themselves."

I stared at her back in a daze, my mind was blank. The evening breeze blew her head, stretched out her hand to caress her, paused and put it down... because I knew that Zhang Yao would not allow me to touch her.

At this moment, she is like a crystal clear bubble floating in the air, a beauty that I cannot touch.

I seemed to have gotten the result, but I had guessed it long ago but I was unwilling to accept it.

"I will go home with Tong Xue tomorrow morning... I don't know how many days it will take to come back."

"Well, I'll say hello to my grandma..." Zhang Yao was stunned for a moment and said with a smile: "Don't ask, after all, I'm not her granddaughter-in-law."
Chapter completed!