Bai Xiang is the only person I have ever thought of to contact Tong Xue. Now even she avoids me. I really don’t know how to find her.

It turns out that our relationship has been deleted and changed the number and there is no contact anymore... While modern communication brings convenience to people, it also makes people lose hope of recovery.

I don’t want to save Tong Xue. Now that Zhang Yao is by my side, it is already a blessing I have accumulated over my lifetime, but when I am facing the situation, I have to contact Tong Xue.

I have thought of taking Zhang Yao home directly, but it just happened to kill multiple birds with one stone. At that time, I didn’t have to say anything more, and my parents would know the fact that I and Tong Xue were separated. This would be convenient for me.

But what about my parents?

Can they accept the fact that I have been deceived for two years?

Will they accept Zhang Yao again? Especially after they knew that the gap between our two families seemed to be separated by a ravine.

In addition, my grandma is on her verge of death, which is enough for my mother to be sad. Originally, her body would be very weak. If she knows the news again, under the double blow, I can be sure that she will get seriously ill.

As a son, I am already unfilial enough.

I can't fill in any blockage for her at this moment... She will lose her mother. I don't want her to lose her most satisfied daughter-in-law on the same day.

So, I can only ask Tong Xue.

Even if I know, this is unfair to her and Zhang Yao, and even all this is a potential harm to my parents.

I really have no choice. After Tong Xue discussed lying with me, we had already embarked on an entangled road in the hearts of each other's parents... and this road has been deeply rooted in the hearts of the four old people.

I originally thought that when Tong Xue returned home, we were more frank, but unfortunately, the facts would not go well. Things came one after another, which made me have no time to think about those things.

Now, grandma is leaving too.

......

I stood up from the chair and left Zhuoma without saying hello.

In their eyes, I, the newly appointed director, are optional. In Mu Qing's eyes, I am like an ignorant clown, and I have to confront her with a head-on challenge.

Now, I no longer have the intention to deal with those things. I just want to find Tong Xue as soon as possible, and then take her back to my hometown to see my grandma for the last glance, the last eternal look.

I felt very sad, but I had to be strong.

In the four nine cities, there is no corner that can accommodate me, the noisy streets, the prosperous commercial area, and the rental house that has lost its anger are not my place.

I finally realized that I had everything and had nothing.

I wanted to find someone to accompany me, but Zhang Yao had so many things to deal with... When a man is most sad and helpless, it is probably the moment I was experiencing.

Standing at the intersection on the streets of Guomao, it seems to be standing at the crossroads of life.

I suddenly felt very tired, and it was this kind of fatigue that made me think of giving up.

Give up the bet with Mu Qing, give up the ambition that I just picked up, give up feeling the prosperity of Beijing, give up the promises I said... But what after I give up?

Will I really be willing to be a useless person who has achieved nothing and is so ordinary that he is mediocre?

Who can give me the answer?

No one.

I don't even more

There will be that answer.

Other people's lives are being pushed down and rebuilt, growing continuously; while my life is being pushed down and even if I have rebuilt, it is useless to work hard, and in the end I just leave only scars.

Self-pity.

Yes, I started to complain. This is not what a man should be, but I became like this.

I began to take steps and prepared to go back to the rental house to sort out my luggage home, rushed back to Benxi, and went to see my grandma for the last glance... I couldn't contact Tong Xue, and I couldn't realize the old man's last wish.

If my parents ask, I will continue to lie. It will take a day to delay it. After my mother comes out of this sadness, she will cruelly bring her another sadness.

"Ha...haha...hahaha..."

I started laughing, laughing as I walked.

In my third year in Beijing, I lost my first love, and in my fifth year in Beijing, I also lost my grandma. My brothers betrayed me inexplicably, and my dream of chasing them gradually fades away...

Embrace the flowers in the mirror and look forward to the moon in the water.

Perhaps, what Mu Qing said is right. I am just a lower-class man who is not worthy of Zhang Yao. Now that I have it, I will sooner or later be cruelly deprived of others, right?

I'm so fucking lucky.

Let me ask, who is the fucking lucky for the people of my age who wandered in this city?

......

When I walked to the subway entrance, my phone rang, and the call was a string of strange Beijing numbers.

I stopped and adjusted my emotions for a moment. I answered the phone: "Hello, who?"

"I'm Tong Xue."

Tong Xue's cold voice came from the receiver, which looked like a dream to me.

"Tong Xue, is it really you?" Before she could answer, I said excitedly: "Please take two days off, please come home with me... and send it to my grandma for the last time. She... she is leaving."

Speaking of this, the corners of my eyes began to moisten.

I still couldn't accept this fact.

Even though I know that birth, old age, sickness and death are processes that everyone has to go through.

"Chen Mo, I feel very sad that grandma is critically ill." Tong Xue's voice softened a lot, and she asked me: "But, why did you take me back with you? You..."

"I know...but in my parents' eyes, you are still their daughter-in-law."

"I forgot this."

"sorry."

"No one is sorry to anyone. But after I go back with you, I am afraid that in the hearts of uncles and aunts, the misunderstanding of us will become deeper and deeper. What should you and Zhang Yao do then?"

"I......"

I opened my mouth, but I didn't give her a reply.

"Chen Mo, doing this will easily hurt her, do you know?" Tong Xue sighed and said, "For morality, I can help you, but equally, I am also a woman. No woman wants her lover to do such things."

Haven't I thought about these things?

But what else do I have?

With a wry smile, I replied to her: "I will explain it to her clearly on Zhang Yao's side... I can only rely on selfish desires that she can understand."

"I understand you very much, but I still want to scold you. You are such a bastard."
Chapter completed!