Since I separated, I knew that there had been two parallel lines between me and Tong Xue, and there was no possibility of intersecting again. Now, her attitude made me begin to doubt that my words were hitting my heart like a heavy hammer, and the softest part in my heart.

I want to figure it out, it’s not that I am so naive, nor how emotional I am at this time I can be sure that I am more rational than ever.

We were all pure people. I think that at this moment, we can briefly return to the original, most authentic, and emotional world. The most taboo thing is to be close and separated. It will torture our already fragile nerves, and we will all come out without any sleep. There is no more suitable opportunity than now.

Perhaps, this is the purpose of Tong Xue's trip. She is a rational woman and a girl who has known what reality is since childhood.

I wanted to laugh, but the muscles and nerves at the corner of my mouth chose to strike at this time. I wanted to light a cigarette, but she disliked the smell of cigarettes. I was very panicked, and I was calm and sighed. I tried my best to control the trembling and wanted to give her a hugging arm, "What do you mean by this? I don't really understand."

Tong Xue turned her head and was just at the tip of my nose. With the breeze, I could clearly smell the scent of jasmine. She smiled softly and said, "Chen Mo, none of us are fools, let alone actors. It is better not to do things like being deaf."

This is a knife, a knife that kills people invisible, and it successfully stings the heart that I thought was numb enough!

She didn't tell me the answer, but we all knew the answer: she thought about going with me, but reality did not allow it. There were too many arrangements she could not predict, and she pushed her forward and forced her to leave me, a man she wanted to live with for the rest of her life.

What kind of helplessness?

What kind of dilemma is it?

Can two people still overcome that hurdle if they work together?

I don't understand.

This must be Tong Xue's excuse. She should know that using such excuses will make me see how incompetent I am. A man cannot even protect his beloved woman. The most painful thing for a man is nothing more than.

I looked up and just now a speck of dust was blown into my eyes. I didn't want her to see the wet corners of my eyes. Who made me a strong man?

"I'm not an actor, and I'm not acting dumb," my voice kept calm enough. "I just wanted to figure it out, that's all. After all, the judge will clearly display the crime when he sentences the prisoner to death, right?"

"This is not a lawsuit." Tong Xue raised her head stubbornly, and her beautiful eyes stared at me. She said, "It's meaningless to pursue all this again."

“It makes sense.”

"What's the point?" Tong Xue smiled, helpless.

"Its significance is that it can make me see clearly my ignorance and cowardice. I am a failed person. I have realized this since the day we chose to go to Beijing, but I don't care, because you are by my side and you can survive it."

Now that things have come to this point, it is really meaningless to hide all my emotions. Like is just being presumptuous, and love should be like this. I grabbed Tong Xue's thin shoulders and forced her to look directly at my scorching and moist eyes, and spoke hoarsely:

"You are really heartless. You left that day and then, and Tong Xue, after you slept with me, do you know that you used to be my life, even if I don't want to admit it, now! But my life cannot be my own. Can you say it's ridiculous? You were taken away by someone, and I have no resentment. After all, everyone has the right to choose their own life. If you can have a better life, I am willing to sincerely bless you. No matter how selfish I am, I can always tell you clearly."

Tong Xue struggled. Instead of letting her go as usual, I increased my strength and ignored her complicated expression. I continued, "The words you said just now are obviously inconspicuous. Girl, please allow me to call you like this. What can we not stand? Do you have to end our relationship? This is your fucking choice? I don't believe it."

"But the fact that Chen Mo has given birth to it, I just think that I'm sorry for you, delaying your seven years of youth, and spending on a material woman like me."

"You're not that kind of person." I'm sure.

"Then you think I'm a liar. Those who used to be lying to you, just lie to you as a fool."

"you"

Angry and resentful.

I don’t know how much courage I mustered to say these words, but she avoided them as usual. She didn’t want to say it. No matter how I wanted to figure it out, it would be useless.

It seems that I was thinking too much, and she never showed up those unrealistic ideas.

I put down my hands dejectedly and gave her freedom just like that autumn night when I went home with a huge sum of 100,000 yuan after we went crazy, and let her leave peacefully.

There is no wise person in love.

"When we first arrived in Beijing, we also had a luxury. The house we rented at that time was the old community in Chaoyang Park. Every day when I went to work, I would pass by rows of high-end apartments, piles of matchboxes, each of which started to jump ten million. From the perspective of God, I felt it was ridiculous: except for those who were effortless, who would spend their entire lives to buy a house?"

I smiled, looked at Tong Xue with a puzzled look, and said lightly: "Now, I have seen the answer in you, and the price is your departure. You said, you have thought that you would not marry if you were not married, but I have said that I would not marry if you were not married? Unfortunately, in the face of reality, everything is too pale. Girl, I called you like this for the last time, I wish you a bright future and a worry-free life."

The wind was blowing, and the night in Wuzhen was very warm, but I felt cold.

"Let's go back, go to bed earlier, I'll send you back to Beijing tomorrow."

Tong Xue was stunned, with tears hanging on her cheeks, and the lights were on it, radiating a clear luster, as bright as crystal. She said: "I never thought about the future, because we are together as the future. Chen Mo, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

She squatted down and covered her face and cried.

The whimpering sound was very harsh and tortured my already fragile nerves.

"No one is sorry for anyone. When I was together, I would have never had any regrets." I really wanted to slap myself, because I lost her, which was the biggest regret.

I felt deeply that as long as I walked up to her now, then squatted down and wiped her tears and kissed her lips, we would definitely have an unforgettable night, but we would never be able to go back in the past.

There is no winner in this drama of torture.
Chapter completed!