Chapter 133: Empty heartache
In a trance, I didn't know how to explain. If I had to involve Zhang Yao and me, our relationship seemed to be the most ordinary friend in addition to superiors and subordinates.
Because there is a gap between us, anyone with a discerning eye can see it, but Wang Yuxuan is not as fake. She is so confident that she really can't refute it. It is inevitable that I will have such thoughts.
Will Zhang Yao really be jealous of me?
The moment this thought came out, I was deeply trapped in the real reason, telling me that everything was just a joke by Wang Yuxuan. She just wanted to activate the atmosphere of the luncheon, but her false sentiment told me that she was right, but I didn't see it. As the contact increased, I had already developed a good impression of that woman, otherwise why would I be so anxious when she was trapped in the elevator yesterday?
From childhood to adulthood, the most we do is multiple-choice questions, and the most disgusting thing is also choice.
I don't know how to choose, I don't know whether to believe in reason or sentiment, I just know that I'm very confused now, my heart is in chaos
Fortunately, the waiter in the restaurant broke the silence between us.
Looking at the pasta in front of me, I didn't look up and smiled at Wang Yuxuan, "The things are all served. Hurry up and have dinner. I have to go to work in the afternoon."
"You are not sure, are you?" Wang Yuxuan asked lightly: "Actually, in your heart, you will think that what I said is right, right?"
"What did you say?"
"Senior brother, why can you escape from me? You like that sister very much."
"I don't know myself, what will you know? Let's have a meal."
I still made a choice, chose to escape and not face this problem. As she said, I dare not face my heart at least, now I dare not.
"Born Man" Wang Yuxuan sighed and stopped talking. In silence, we spent this lunch time.
When I returned to the office, Zhang Yao was already sitting on the chair, lowering her head and wondering what she was busy with. I couldn't help looking at her. Her thin shoulders were shining through the sunlight in the room, blocking a layer of hazy color. It was very mysterious.
"Why did you come back so early?" I asked with a light cough.
Hearing this, Zhang Yao raised her head and looked at me with a funny look, "It seems that I should ask you, right?"
"Didn't you go out for dinner with Mr. Mu?"
"It's just a working meal, I'll come back after I've finished eating."
"oh"
"Where are you, why haven't you stayed with your junior sister for a while?"
"Hey, am I going to come back to work?"
"Then should I praise you for being serious and responsible in your job?" Zhang Yao asked seriously, not as if she was joking at all.
"You can do whatever you want."
"Chen Mo"
"Um?"
"Am I stingy in your heart?"
I looked at her in confusion, "Why do you want to ask such a question?"
"Nothing." She shook her head and devoted herself to her work again.
""
I should have spoken and said something, but I didn't know what I should have said. For some reason, we fell into this slightly awkward atmosphere. She became very strange and I became very strange.
Perhaps, it is this weirdness that is separated between us that makes the atmosphere like this.
I returned to my corner and turned on the computer. But my eyes didn't stop on the screen. Instead, I was secretly looking at her, with an indescribable emotion in my heart, which made me angry.
I was going crazy, and I was tortured by this indescribable emotion. Every nerve in my body began to become fragile. I wanted to create some sound to attract her attention, but what should I do after she paid attention?
Just in such a tangled and chaotic manner.
Wang Yuxuan is really hateful. If it weren't for the question she asked, I wouldn't have to do this anymore. Should I blame her? The girl just said what she saw and just asked her own doubts. What was she wrong?
I suddenly stood up from my seat, and because I used too much force, the chair banged out.
The sound fell to the ground.
"What’s wrong with you?"
Zhang Yao was startled, raised her head and asked me angrily.
"I'll smoke a cigarette." After holding the chair, I didn't dare to look at her bright eyes and walked straight to the door.
"You stop."
Zhang Yao called me behind her back.
"Is there something wrong? I was really careless just now."
"I'm not talking about this." Zhang Yao sighed and said, "I don't know what's wrong with you, but it's weird that you can really easily affect your working condition."
"sorry."
"Nothing is like this. I'll give you an afternoon off. Go to Jiayi's place to check it out and communicate with her when the construction will start."
"Oh, OK."
I nodded trunkly, returned to my seat and turned off my computer, then put on my coat and left, without saying a word to her from beginning to end
Standing downstairs of the building, I took out my cell phone, flipped through Lin Jiayi's number, and dialed it for her.
"Hey, is there something wrong?" Her voice was very low.
"Um"
"I'm in class, please send a text message." After saying that, Lin Jiayi hurriedly hung up the phone. The busy voice from the receiver annoyed me, and even it came to laugh at me!
I lit a cigarette for myself and took a deep breath before I could get better. I forced myself to resist the sudden anger, patiently send her a text message.
"When will you use time to find something to you?"
"What's up?"
"About the resumption of work and shooting."
"oh"
This somewhat cold response was so dazzling. I suddenly realized that I was cruel and insisted on telling her that I was her friend, especially now that she has not yet been able to get out of the shadow of Xiang Xiaoan leaving. I don’t have time to accompany me, so I should comfort me.
But what did I say?
Without a trace of humanity, can I be worthy of Xiang Xiaoan's entrustment? Are I still worthy of being Lin Jiayi's friend?
Smack
I slapped myself directly on the street. I had to be a little more awake and not continue to immerse myself in those unrealistic problems.
"Feel sorry"
Uneasy, I sent Lin Jiayi such a message.
"What apologize? I'll see if I can run out later. You can go to the ferry to wait for me first."
"good."
Until I took the subway to Houhai, I still couldn't see through the root of my inexplicable drama, just like I couldn't see the way forward in Beijing, struggling in despair. For the first time, I had the idea of needing a woman to save me.
Chapter completed!