"Where were you going this morning?" Yuying lay on the quilt on the floor, pillowing her hands, looking at the ceiling, remembering that in the morning, Axue just sent a message saying that she wanted to go out alone, and then she went for most of the day before she came back. Later, she didn't find the opportunity to ask her alone.

"Hmm?...oh... I'm going to see Sister Ruimei..." A Xue was sleeping in the bed. She had been thinking about her conversation with Ruimei today. She couldn't fall asleep for a long time and was startled by Yuying's question.

"Ah?" Yuying sat up and looked at A Xue on the bed. However, the room was pitch black and he couldn't see A Xue's expression. He just didn't expect that she would actually go to Ruimei, "Why did you suddenly look for her?"

"I had thought about whether to go for a few days. I just kept thinking that if I let them ignore it, such a beautiful relationship would definitely end in vain. It's a pity..."

"This is originally a problem for both of them, what can we bystanders do..."

"Do you know, I once let down a man who loves me wholeheartedly. I mentioned to you before. That was my boyfriend in my first love. He has always treated me sincerely. We also thought about getting married in a church with cherry blossoms, and once longed for what kind of house we would like to have in the future. Unfortunately, in the end, I ruined everything myself. I despised him for not being motivated, despised him for being able to stick to me, and I think I don't love him. So when I met another man with a career that said he loved me, I abandoned him. How shameful I am

, When I lost everything, I knew in my heart that he was the best for me. At that time, I realized that what I wanted was actually him who loved me so purely. I really wanted to see him, and I always dreamed of him and dreamed of our past, but unfortunately he no longer wanted to see me again. In the past few years, I have tried my best to save everything, and I still believe in his promise to me: he would wait until I was 40 years old. So when I could not contact him at all, I could only wait, wait, that kind of heart

Love, that kind of life is simply torture and suffering. So I understand Uncle Dayu's mood. But when I found out that he didn't want me to get entangled anymore, he changed his mobile phone number, and even his only email address was added to the blacklist, I truly realized that he had made a choice. He wouldn't wait for me anymore. It should be said that he might already have his own family. I am doing my own fault, and who can I blame, but I am so selfish that I think others must be waiting for me. Do you think I am really selfish and stupid... No matter what I am

How much love is at first? Once you lose it, everything will change. How could someone wait for me again? Especially for someone like me. So when I knew that Uncle Dayu could actually wait for Sister Ruimei for 10 years, I was really moved and sad from the bottom of my heart. Uncle Dayu was not wrong, and Sister Ruimei was not wrong. Why did lovers who did not make any mistakes want to see each other for meaningless reasons but couldn’t see each other? It has been ten years since they were separated. I think someone should push them, and they should be happy."

Yuying was still sitting, listening silently, without saying anything, but he could hear A Xue's throat choked, A Xue should be crying.

"Sorry, why did I talk about this unpleasant past? It's just that I can't forgive myself, but I can't bear to see Uncle Dayu and Sister Ruimei for the rest of my life. Because they love each other and want each other to be happy, one of them avoided him, and the other was waiting silently. This situation made me missed 10 years in vain. I can't stand such a sad ending. We will go back tomorrow. I thought about it for a long time, so I went today. I know I'm busy, but this is the only thing I can do."

"...Uncle Dayu just wants to protect Sister Ruimei... I don't know what the people from the Baili family will do..." Yuying lay down, continued to look at the smallpox, and said.

"It's okay," A Xue wiped the tears from her face and said confidently: "There will be no problem."

"Are you so sure?"

"Well. At the beginning, they didn't want Sister Ruimei to see Uncle Dayu, just because they didn't want you to know what happened 10 years ago. Now you are going to get married, and the partner is not Alisa. Will they still worry about Ryumei? Now the person they want to hate should be the one who married you." Alisa now has no choice but to kill herself because she has already taken action once, Axue thought to herself.

"I didn't expect you to be quite smart." Yuying was a little surprised when facing A Xue's analysis so calmly.

"Do you think I'm stupid?" Axue wondered, knowing that he usually talked less in this family, but it wasn't enough.

"What do you think?" Yuying said with a smile, "I think you should be a person who pursues perfection. Facing Uncle Daewoo's love, you just want to see a perfect ending."

"I admit that in some ways I hope to strive for perfection. Especially now, maybe because I can't have a perfect life, I hope to see someone else have a perfect ending."

"In other words, you're a little bit self-satisfied."

"Is that true? But I think so, I just want to do this myself. Sister Ruimei and the others decide what they want, and I can't control it... Oh, do you mean, is it too troublesome for me like this? I think now, will I really mess up?" A Xue suddenly flicked up from the bed, and her expression became panicked. "Did I do something wrong again? What should I do? Every time I decide to do it myself, I have no choice forever... Did I get into trouble this time?"

"You're going to be a god!" Yuying was so scared by her reaction that she bounced up. "You're really strange. Didn't you go there before you think it through? Why did you regret it suddenly? You didn't go there, you said everything you didn't say, why are you worried about so much? Let them."

"But but... If Sister Ruimei moved away because of what I said and avoided a further place, what should Uncle Dayu do? Even at least the place where she lived at the beginning was gone, Uncle Dayu would be even more difficult!"

"No!" Yuying lay down again and suddenly smiled: "You should be a little nervous. Go to bed early, and we will go home early tomorrow."

"That's what I said..."

"By the way, I've been asking you tonight, do you know Azhe?" Yuying suddenly asked.

"Azhe? Oh, you mean the one you met in the evening?" Axue remembered the incident in the evening.

"Yeah." Yuying kept thinking about the incident when they met Azhe, his classmate and neighbor at the gate in the evening. Ah Xue suddenly hid behind him, grabbed his clothes tightly, lowered her head, as if she was afraid of seeing that person.

"Well, I know him. He is actually a college classmate of my first love boyfriend. I saw him often before. But I didn't wear glasses at the time, so he probably didn't recognize me."

"Oh, that's it," Yuying looked at the smallpox, as if she had thought of something.

"Are you still thinking about... wanting to meet that man, that's... the first love..." Yuying stared at the ceiling and asked thoughtfully.

"…Well," A Xue didn't react for a while after being asked suddenly, and then lay down and looked at the dark ceiling. "I thought, but I didn't dare to think about it anymore. So what can I do when I see it? But every time I think about it, or dream, I want to cry, and I don't want to remember it... If possible, I don't want to remember it. I only remember the last sentence he gave me... Forget it, in fact, I want to see my family even more. During the Chinese New Year, I have been thinking about how my mother and sisters are now. Are they doing well? My mother's heart disease has not happened again, right? Is the hypertension improved? Are the family busy during the Chinese New Year? My nephews should have grown a lot, maybe they have forgotten that they have me, as an aunt. Although I know they don't want to see me, I still think and think. I dreamed about them many times in my dreams."

"Do you...want to go back?"

"You are not unaware of my situation. I can't go back, and I can't go back. But if I can, I want to see them. I just read it. Forget it, they have long since disappeared. I think so much is a crime... Sorry, I said this again, so you can't sleep. I am just like this, and I will only remember these unhappy memories. I shouldn't have the chance to see them again in the rest of my life..."

"I think... you should still have a chance to see it..." Yuying murmured.
Chapter completed!