Chapter 1148 Pain
The faint smile on Zhang Zilin's face was instantly frozen after hearing what Bai Ningyuan said. Immediately after the next second, his face suddenly turned pale, and there was no trace of blood, as if the blood in his body had been evacuated. His body couldn't help but tremble slightly, and his eyes also had a look of panic.
"You..." Zhang Zilin tried desperately to say something, but her teeth were also trembling, and she couldn't even say a complete sentence.
Seeing Zhang Zilin's gloomy appearance, this was a situation that Bai Ningyuan had never seen before. He felt an indescribable pain in his chest, as if a blunt knife was slashing hard on his heart, blood dripping from it bit by bit, and even his soul seemed to be about to be torn apart.
This feeling made him suddenly remember the day of rebirth. When he knew that he had lost his wife and daughter, the feeling of pain was so painful that Bai Ningyuan could remember it for life. Today, he actually experienced it again in Zhang Zilin.
"Sister Zilin, I..." Bai Ningyuan's face showed a helpless bitter look. Seeing Zhang Zilin like this, he didn't know how to continue. Even though he understood that long pain was better than short pain, he could not bear to hurt her at this moment.
In the living room, I once again fell into an extremely quiet atmosphere. Apart from the classic love movies that were still playing on the TV, only the breathing of two people was left.
But at this time, neither Bai Ningyuan nor Zhang Zilin had the mood to watch any movies.
"Please tell me what the hell is going on."
I don't know how long it took, but Zhang Zilin suddenly raised his head. His face, which was originally full of sadness and disbelief, had calmed down. He said to Bai Ningyuan. Although there was still a bit of sadness in his voice, the eyes that had a strange color were staring at Bai Ningyuan tightly, not letting go of any slight details on his face.
It is worthy of being a person who came from a big family and had seen various big scenes. Her mind and character have been trained to be particularly tenacious. Even if she suddenly heard such unexpected news, after the initial confusion and panic, she has gradually recovered.
"Sister Zilin, to be honest, you have always been the object I long for. For you, I can't find any shortcomings. In my mind, you are almost a perfect existence, as if you are a dream, and you can get your favor. If you are with you, even if the price is death, I will be willing. You are definitely the most ideal marriage partner." Bai Ningyuan looked at Zhang Zilin and said softly.
Since there is no way to retreat, we can only jump out of the matter and explain it. If you die early, you should be reborn soon. He was not going to hide it from her.
When Zhang Zilin heard Bai Ningyuan's words, he didn't say anything, but still looked at Bai Ningyuan silently. He just said this great story in a scattered manner, and she believed that there would be some more details later. After all, he had said before that he had "no choice but to do so."
Facing Zhang Zilin's deep gaze, Bai Ningyuan gritted his teeth, and then he recited the draft that he had been tossing and turning for several nights almost like a memorization: "I have always longed to be with you, but I can't, because the woman I want to get married is another one, and this is destined from the beginning."
"Is it Liu Siying?" Zhang Zilin asked Bai Ningyuan subconsciously. She suddenly lost the ability to think when she heard what Bai Ningyuan said. Now that she has recovered from calmness, she can make Bai Ningyuan disappoint those who want to marry her. Apart from Liu Siying, she can't think of anyone else.
No matter what, Liu Siying has been his legitimate girlfriend for many years, so it is not difficult to understand that the two of them suddenly entered the marriage hall.
But even so, she still feels a little sad, because Liu Siying has talked to her more than once, and she is willing to be the woman behind the scenes like Zhang Yan, and then the three of them are together in harmony. It is precisely because of these words and her affection for Bai Ningyuan that she has been carrying scandals and waiting for him for so long, but now, she feels that she has been betrayed.
In Zhang Zilin's heartbroken eyes, Bai Ningyuan slowly shook his head: "No, it's not her, but she already knows about this..."
Zhang Zilin's eyes suddenly widened and he stared at Bai Ningyuan. The originally gentle elder sister disappeared all of a sudden, and was replaced by an angry little lion. She could hardly suppress her anger. She suddenly interrupted Bai Ningyuan's words and screamed: "Bai Ningyuan, you are shameless, what do you think of Siying as!"
Bai Ningyuan was a little confused when she suddenly yelled like this. He had never seen Zhang Zilin so angry. Although he was a beauty, even when he was angry, Bai Ningyuan had no intention of thinking about these things now. After a while, he realized the reason why Zhang Zilin was so excited. It seemed that she thought Bai Ningyuan treated Liu Siying as a toy that could be discarded like a piece of shoes.
For Zhang Zilin, the man who plays with feelings is something she cannot forgive.
"Sister Zilin, it's not what you think..." Bai Ningyuan was silent for a moment before he said softly to Zhang Zilin.
Although Zhang Zilin, who broke out at this time, still stared at her angrily, her anger dissipated a lot. She had known Bai Ningyuan for six years. With her understanding of Bai Ningyuan, Bai Ningyuan was not such a person, so although the anger in her heart had not yet calmed down, she was still willing to give Bai Ningyuan a chance to explain herself in her heart.
"I have no false feelings for you, Siying, Teacher Zhang Yan, and each of you. I think you know this, too." Bai Ningyuan said seriously.
"Hmph, men are not like this. They say it nicely, but behind their backs, no one is a clever person." Hearing Bai Ningyuan's words, Zhang Zilin's face cleared a little, but he still couldn't help but hum a little.
If Bai Ningyuan saw her snatching Bai so angry on weekdays, he would have been very amazed, but at this time Bai Ningyuan no longer had such a mood. He smiled bitterly and said, "Sister Zilin, believe it or not, I have never carried you on my back to tease other women."
Zhang Zilin stared at Bai Ningyuan, probably judging how true Bai Ningyuan's words were, but obviously, she still believed Bai Ningyuan. After a while, she asked Bai Ningyuan: "What's going on with the woman you are talking about?"
"Her name is Xu Qingmo, she is an ordinary nurse in Langya. You don't know her, she doesn't know you either. Even she may not know me now..." Bai Ningyuan replied in a deep voice.
Perhaps Bai Ningyuan's words were a little beyond Zhang Zilin's expectations. She raised her head and looked at Bai Ningyuan for some unknown reason, as if she couldn't believe what Bai Ningyuan had just said.
"I don't know how to tell you this kind of thing, because after I say it, I'm afraid it's hard for you to believe it. Since I can't convince you, I don't think I need to say it anymore. Although she is just an ordinary person, no matter what appearance, family background, etc., it's her that will marry me in the future. Although I can't let go of you, Sister Zilin, and I also know that Sister Zilin and Siying are different. I can't expect more, but I still have to do this. I still have to say the same thing. I have the last resort..." Bai Ningyuan sighed lightly, with a bit of sadness in his words.
The more he reached the end, his tone became more and more powerless.
He thought it was very good and could not give up on Zhang Zilin. But when things came to an end, let Zhang Zilin, a beautiful girl from heaven, follow him without any distinction. Not to mention whether she agreed or not, even the Zhang family could agree?
More importantly, even if you have any ideas, you cannot say it in front of Zhang Zilin.
"Sister Zilin, I feel more painful than you to make this decision, because I have always loved you deeply, so for so many years, I have just selfishly looked forward to the arrival of this day later, just to enjoy every minute and every second I am with you, but now, I can no longer drag it down." Bai Ningyuan looked at Zhang Zilin's eyes with indescribable entanglement and pain.
Hearing Bai Ningyuan's words, Zhang Zilin didn't answer for a long time, just staring at him like that, but there was no focus in his eyes, and he seemed to be lost. After a long time, she raised her head, raised her chin slightly, and said to Bai Ningyuan: "Bai Ningyuan, what is I in your heart for so many years..."
While talking, although she tried her best to hide it, her tone still contained a bit of unconcealable loss.
After saying this, Zhang Zilin looked at Bai Ningyuan deeply. In her eyes, Bai Ningyuan saw heart-wrenching emotions such as despair, sadness, loss, heartbreak, etc., and she seemed to have no intention of waiting for Bai Ningyuan to answer. She slowly turned around, like a puppet who had lost her soul, only knowing mechanical movements.
The moment he turned around, Bai Ningyuan saw the crystal clearness that flashed on her cheek.
Although I had long understood the difficulty of scheming her and had imagined various consequences, when all this really happened, Bai Ningyuan felt a pain again.
Seeing Zhang Zilin slowly walking towards the door in dismay, Bai Ningyuan stretched out his hand, as if he wanted to catch her, but his whole body seemed to be frozen and could not move at all. Until her figure disappeared outside the door, the hand drooped weakly...
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