It's a pity that Chen Ping'an can't remember even a little bit of the content after "but", not even a word. It may be that the person or the book didn't mention it at all.

Chen Pingan asked this question today, and of course he was not asking Lu Tai. Chen Pingan didn't think much about it.

Chen Pingan has been practicing boxing since then and after studying.

Have you really never thought about your future?

Of course it's impossible. We had a sixty-year agreement with the Sword Spirit Immortal Sister, and now we have another ten-year agreement with Ning Yao.

Chen Ping'an's two "tours" have even changed from the original "my punch must be the fastest" to "this punch can be faster, but it must be the most reasonable."

One of Chen Ping'an's most important words may have been ignored by those who heard it at the time. At that time, in an inn when he was returning to his hometown, he said to a girl in a pink skirt and a child in Tsing Yi, "If I did it somewhere If you are wrong, you must tell me."

In Chen Pingan's mind, no matter how many punches he received in the old man's body and soul at the down-and-out Shanzhulou, Chen Pingan always doubted himself invisibly.

But this is a step that must be taken.

As for Chen Pingan's previous state of mind, or his illusory original intention, the same unintentional words revealed the secret. It was the words he said to Ning Yao's parents on the upside-down mountain.

That means Chen Pingan has been denying himself.

"I didn't do well enough."

If you don't do it well enough, it's a mistake.

How many people in the world would be so harsh on themselves?

However, this kind of mentality did not form for no reason. It was an unintentional and inevitable move that forced Chen Ping'an to piece together a complete state of mind when his destiny was shattered, as well as subsequent hardships and various coincidences.

It's done, it gathers into a spectacle of the sun and the moon in the sky, and the stars dim.

If it doesn't work, it's probably due to various broken promises and various disappointments.

If a person has nothing to eat, he will starve to death, but if his heart is dry, he will also want to die, but he is not aware of it. If he doesn't die today, he will die next year.

Desperately trying to survive, facing adversity and desperation, getting angry and working hard.

But they also secretly seek death, overeat and eat too much, don't know restraint, have seven emotions and six desires, and have a wandering mind. All these shortcomings are the weird traits of the human heart.

The human heart is so complex that even saints and immortals dare not think they can understand it.

Why Cui Chan lost in a small town is an example.

Following this line of thinking, Chen Pingan's state of mind became very clear. It was my fault, Chen Pingan, for almost killing Liu Xianyang, so I died when I died. After I explained the truth that the other party didn't want to hear, it was all over.

Even if the sissy man from Longyao died, Chen Ping'an was just because he did not agree to accept the rouge box from that man.

Chen Pingan still felt that he was "wrong".

When a person truly begins to understand the world,

I have seen the towering mountains, the endless winding rivers, the magnificent sights that are extremely high and far away, and maybe even the romance of those scholars, and the yamen and official uniforms that symbolize the majesty of a country.

Life is impermanent, including birth, old age, illness and death. After seeing the seemingly heroic but cold-blooded cavalry, a person will often suddenly feel very small at a certain moment.

This feeling is probably that of loneliness.

It is difficult to empathize with sadness, sharing of happiness always fleeting, life is just a series of farewells...

Chen Pingan is actually full of fear of this world.

Liu Xianyang, Li Baoping, and Gu Can are not like Chen Pingan.

Gu Canhui is obsessed with revenge.

Li Baoping will feel that there are always interesting things of this kind in the world. He is immersed in his colorful inner world and almost never questions himself, let alone easily denies himself.

That's why she was able to say, "How could there be a junior uncle who doesn't like Li Baoping?"

Liu Xianyang would say from the bottom of his heart, I want to see higher mountains and bigger rivers, and I must not die in this small place!

But Chen Pingan wouldn't. He might do many things, such as taking Li Baoping and others to Sui Dynasty, but Chen Pingan's mental state and image would hide him.

Chen Ping'an's thoughts and thoughts are generally "immovable".

Having been firing porcelain in the Long Kiln for many years, the young man has been striving for a steady hand. In fact, he is stubbornly pursuing a calm mind.

If his heart is uncertain, he will resent Song Jixin for being rich, and be jealous that he has people to depend on and can study.

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This is the reason why Ruan Qiong, even though he has no prejudice against Chen Pingan, never regards Chen Pingan as a fellow disciple and is unwilling to accept him as a disciple.

This is also the reason why Lu Tai feels that Chen Ping'an is not spiritual enough.

Therefore, the young man's state of mind that Sword Spirit saw at the beginning was that of a young child guarding a grave and a hilltop with straw sandals.

The only "movement" is chasing someone's figure to the south.

That figure was actually Ning Yao who left with Yu Jian.

Therefore, Chen Pingan chose to give the sword to the girl he loved. Compared with the trepidation and walking on thin ice when he went to Sui Dynasty, he finally felt more independent.

"I want to take this journey."

I, Chen Pingan, want to do something for myself.

Therefore, even though he envied Li Er of Old Dragon City, and even after arriving at the Sword Qi Great Wall, Chen Pingan had an extra burden on his shoulders, but Chen Pingan was more relaxed than before.

So Chen Ping'an changed out of his straw sandals and put on a robe, hoping to become a swordsman and a great swordsman who could carve words on the Great Wall of Sword Qi.

Since I only dared to buy five hills, I hurriedly rented out three, thinking that I would give all my belongings to Liu Xianyang who had left his hometown in one go. Around the Chinese New Year, he gave all of them to a girl in a pink skirt and a kid in green clothes, and nearly half of the top-grade snake gallstones...

…From a person who said, “Since I can’t keep it, I’ll give it to the one I care about as soon as possible” to today’s Chen Ping’an, he has been transformed.

All this is hard-won.

Why did the literary sage and old scholar get so drunk that he patted Chen Ping'an on the head and said that the young man wanted to

The reason is that the old man saw through the young man's mental problems at a glance.

Young people should not be like this. When they are very quiet and thoughtful, they should take off their burdens and easily do the beautiful things that young men should do.

It's just a principle in the world. Whether you hear it or not, and whether you know it or not, is one thing. How to do it is another thing.

It is even more difficult to put the principles in and out of books into practice.

Chen Pingan drank tea one mouthful at a time. Before Lu Tai was about to tell his answer, Chen Pingan suddenly spoke and said, "Even if I'm not familiar with you, and even if I have to lend you money again and again, I don't want to have contact with you."

, and I don’t even want to go to the fairyland. It’s actually very simple, because I’m afraid of death.”

In his hometown town, facing Cai Jinjian, Fu Nanhua and Banshan Yuan one after another, Chen Pingan thought that he was almost dead.

It was the second time in Jiaolonggou.

There are no more than three things.

Chen Pingan slowly put down the finished tea bowl and said with a smile: "Whether you believe it or not, I can never catch good things that rely on luck."

Chen Ping'an thought to himself and said: "I just thought about it and felt that I might have been right before, but if it is still like this now, it is wrong. If you want to go further in your future practice, you have to correct it slowly."

Lu Tai looked strange and a little solemn.

He was actually using Lu's secret mind-observation power just now to peek into Chen Ping'an's state of mind.

Chen Pingan picked up the tea bowl and asked, "Can I have another bowl?"

Lu Tai said angrily: "Do you think you're drinking?"

But he still gave Chen Pingan a bowl of tea.

Chen Pingan continued: "But if I don't follow you to Dengzhen Fairyland, I think it's right. Maybe if I enter Dengzhen Fairyland with you, you won't even be able to make any money. Now, you have made a lot of money, and I have made a lot of money."

I got three Grain Rain coins, which is pretty good."

Lu Tai himself had stopped drinking tea. He put his hands on his knees and said with a smile: "You lent me two, but you actually only earned one."

Chen Ping'an hesitated for a moment, then said frankly, "I think it's three."

Lu Tai couldn't laugh or cry.

I bet this guy never thought he would pay back the money?

Chen Ping'an drank tea that he would definitely not be famous for, and said softly: "You have to have a little extra. If you miss it, you miss it. You can't have everything and everything. Lu Tai, what do you think?"

Lu Tai was stunned, then laughed and said: "Chen Ping'an, you are actually hiding from that one!"

Chen Pingan drank a bowl of tea and was confused at the same time.

Lu Tai immediately filled his face with anger, leaned forward, grabbed the tea bowl from Chen Pingan, waved his sleeves, put away all the tea sets, stood up angrily, and glared at Chen Pingan, "Go to the balcony to watch Taoism, who is it?"

Guandao, you all know who the Tongye Fenghou is, and I am nothing but a small Tongye Fenghou! It’s a shame for me!”

Lu Tai climbed up the stairs and left with a roar, making the stairs creak.

Chen Pingan scratched his head in confusion, feeling that Monk Zhang Er was confused.

For a long time after that, Chen Pingan was a little miserable. Lu Tai changed back to women's clothes. Not only did she dress up in a fancy way, but she also made a show of herself. She came here on the first floor every day to deliberately disgust Chen Pingan.

No matter how good-tempered Chen Pingan was, he couldn't stand the endless smell of powder and orchid fingers, as well as the extremely annoying winking and coquettish voice, so one morning when Lu Tai was sitting on the railing and humming a tune, he punched Lu Tai until he fell.

Enter Bishui Lake.

Lu Tai rushed out of the water angrily. He was like a drowned man. He resisted holding back the needle and stabbed Chen Pingan to death with Maimang's two natal flying swords. In the end, he did not take action. He just yelled at Chen Pingan, "This is how you treat yourself."
To be continued...