Chapter 1179: Crisis of Confidence (Seeking Monthly Ticket)(1/2)
After a cup of tea.
Bai Qiannuo followed Ma Qiao to the third floor. Li Qi was the only one on this floor.
Li Qidao: "Maqiao, wait for me downstairs."
"oh."
Ma Qiao glanced at Bai Qiannuo worriedly, then turned and left.
Li Qi looked at Bai Qiannuo. After a while, he stretched out his hand and said, "Sit down."
Bai Qiannuo seemed a little hesitant.
Li Qi smiled bitterly and said, "Have I become so scary that people have to stay seven or eight steps away even to discuss official business?"
Bai Qiannuo Dai frowned slightly, walked over, sat opposite Li Qi, and said, "I wonder what the privy envoy has to say to me?"
"Big deal." Li Qi said seriously.
Bai Qiannuo was stunned. Although she didn't want to, she almost laughed and asked, "What's the big deal?"
Li Qidao: "I found that the contradiction between us has seriously affected official matters. I think we need to talk about it."
Bai Qian promised: "If you want to discuss business with me, I will definitely listen carefully."
Li Qi sighed and said helplessly: "What do you want from me? You have been angry for so long, don't you really understand why I did what I did in the first place? I never wanted to hurt you,
I just want to protect you."
Bai Qiannuo said calmly: "Is this what you wanted to say when you called me here?"
"Yes. If we don't explain this matter clearly today, we won't talk about official matters in the future."
Bai Qiannuo breathed out softly and said: "Okay, let me ask you, have you ever believed in me from the beginning to the end? Can you still be worthy of my trust now?"
Li Qi was stunned and did not answer.
Bai Qiannuo said again: "You said before that I should understand the reason why you did this. Since you are so sure that I will understand your original intention, understand you, and support you, then why didn't you tell me all this in the first place?
Me? If you thought I was just a selfish person at the beginning, then I will not become a person who understands justice now. I will not understand the reasons why you do all this. How do you want me to answer this question?
question?"
Li Qi sighed: "I won't tell you, just because I don't want you to feel embarrassed?"
Bai Qiannuo smiled and shook his head, saying: "This is just an excuse you made for yourself. Do you think I feel very relaxed now? If you can hide it from me for the rest of your life, I won't have any complaints, but
You can't. You also know that you can't. You have long expected that such a day will come. You know that I will be hurt by this, so you asked the emperor to protect our Bai family in advance. Why don't you admit that you have no trust from the beginning to the end?
The reason why you didn't tell me was simply because you were afraid that I would tip off the information and spoil your plan, that's all."
Li Qi was stunned for a moment, feeling his face was hot. He rubbed his face with both hands to cover up his guilt, took a deep breath and said: "I admit. I do lack trust in you in this matter, because
---."
"Because you're afraid of failure."
"Yes, I can't afford to lose."
"But, what does this have to do with whether you trust me or not? Is your trust all about things and not people? You can trust me on a certain thing, but not on a certain thing. This---this is okay
Is it called trust?”
Li Qi was silent again.
Bai Qiannuo's eyes were slightly moist, and she said, "Do you still remember that you personally promised me that you would never lie to me again."
Li Qi hesitated for a moment and said, "I remember."
"But you deceived me so badly that I even had to rely on myself to think and guess. It wasn't until the imperial decree came down that I realized that all this was a trap set by my husband, and I was also in this trap. Prey, even Brother Zheng who is with me in Hangzhou understands the truth of the matter before me."
Bai Qiannuo wiped the tears from her face and said: "What I hate most is not that you did this or that, but your lies one after another. You have never believed me from beginning to end. It can even be said that you have never believed me." Have you ever thought about anyone, including Hong Slave and the others, how much harm your fake death would cause to them? If something unexpected happened to Sister Feng that night, could you still make up for it? You are the only one you have always believed in It's just you. Even if you tell Ma Qiao and Meimei, it's just out of necessity. If you can, you won't tell anyone at all."
Li Qi was silent for a while and said: "I admit that I have reservations about everyone, but do you know how much pressure I was under at that time?"
Bai Qiannuo said very calmly: "Of course I know, so I have always wanted to help you share some of the burden. I have also been trying to prove that I can help you, just like my mother has always helped my father. If not, Who do you think would be willing to leave his husband, his parents, his relatives and sisters and run to Jiangnan alone? Maybe I didn’t say it clearly enough at the time, but the result was not your trust, but your deception again. And hurt, I also said that I don’t care what you do outside, but I hope you won’t lie to me. I won’t say that you are unfaithful, but you can’t even trust your own wife and children, how can you be worthy of others? Do you want to believe it?"
Li Qi frowned and said, "If I told you the whole plan, what would you do?"
Bai Qiannuo said: "This is the answer I have always wanted to tell you, but you didn't give me this chance."
"Then how can you forgive me?"
Bai Qiannuo said: "Why don't you understand? This has nothing to do with forgiveness. You saved the world and you defeated the golden soldiers. I am not qualified to talk about forgiveness. However, I don't want to talk to my husband in the future. , it is too tiring for both parties to have to think about the authenticity of every word he said. Maybe trust is not worth mentioning to you powerful officials in the DPRK, but to me, it is very important. It is very important, especially the trust of your family. I don’t know what you are thinking now, but I am sure that you are still hiding a lot of lies and are ready to tell everyone in the world, including me."
Li Qi's eyelids dropped, not daring to look directly at Bai Qiannuo.
Bai Qiannuo looked at Li Qi's guilty look, with a flash of sadness in his eyes and disappointment on his face. He stood up and said, "If there is nothing else, I will leave now."
Li Qi said nothing.
Bai Qiannuo didn't wait for his answer, turned around and left.
Li Qi never spoke again, seeming to be thinking about something, until Ma Qiao came down from upstairs, and he said to Li Qi: "I--I didn't mean to disturb you. Madam Zhang asked me to ask you, Are you white ladies dining here?"
Li Qi didn't answer but asked: "Maqiao, will you deceive Meimei?"
"Then I would rather commit suicide." Ma Qiao said without hesitation.
"Why?"
"Why should I lie to junior sister?"
"If you have no choice but to do it."
"My junior sister is the most important person to me. How could I be forced into such a situation? Besides, I, Ma Qiao, am a man. I am aboveboard and can tell others everything I want."
"That's it." Li Qi said no more, a bitter smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
After coming out of the Jinlou, Li Qi was no longer in the mood to take care of business, so he went home directly.
"Sir, you are finally back."
As soon as Li Qi entered the door, he saw Mrs. Chen's anxious look and asked hurriedly: "What happened?"
Aunt Chen said anxiously: "Just an hour ago, Mrs. Feng rushed out like crazy."
"What?"
Li Qi was shocked and said: "What---what is going on?"
Aunt Chen said: "I don't know very well, but Mrs. Yelu has already chased her out."
What a crazy situation! Could it be ---?
Li Qi's face tightened and he immediately said to Ma Qiao: "Ma Qiao, hurry up and send some people to the military camp to find him."
Ma Qiao responded, turned around and went out.
Li Qi asked Mrs. Chen again: "Where is the red slave?"
Aunt Chen said: "Oh, the red lady is still looking at Zhengxi in the room."
Li Qi breathed a sigh of relief and quickly walked to the backyard.
When they came to the backyard, they saw Ji Hongnu standing in front of the door, pacing back and forth, looking forward to it. When he saw Li Qi coming, he hurriedly greeted him and said hurriedly: "Brother, Sister Feng, she---"
Li Qi didn't wait for her to finish speaking and said, "Has she seen today's Song Dynasty Times Magazine?"
Ji Hongnu was stunned for a moment, then said: "You know everything?"
Li Qi hummed and said, "This silly woman is always so emotional. Now that there is chaos outside, she still dares to run out."
Ji Hongnu was so frightened that his face turned pale. He said anxiously: "Isn't Sister Feng very dangerous?"
Li Qi put his arm around her shoulders and comforted her: "It's not dangerous at all. The woman who dares to touch me in this world is not yet born, and those who are born are already dead."
Ji Hongnu breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Brother, why did you say that just now?"
Li Qidao: "I'm afraid that she will be even more sad when she hears those remarks outside."
Ji Hongnu pursed his lips and said, "Those people are so mean to make excuses."
Silly girl, you are too naive. Li Qi nodded and said a few words to cater to Ji Hongnu, which stabilized Ji Hongnu's mood.
The two of them did not go inside the house, but went to the front yard to wait.
After about an hour, Li Qi began to feel unable to sit still. He stood up and prepared to look for her in person. But at this moment, he heard someone outside shouting: "My lord, my lord, Lady Feng is back."
Li Qi was overjoyed and hurriedly walked out, only to see Feng Yinu walking in in despair, mumbling something, while Yelu Guyu followed her.
Li Qi looked distressed, but felt very helpless. He walked forward and said softly: "Yinu, are you okay?"
Feng Yinu was startled for a moment, then slowly raised his head, looked at Li Qi, and cursed through gritted teeth: "It's so abominable, those people are so abominable, how could they say that about my sister? What did my sister do wrong? Those people are so abominable."
How can the blame be placed on my sister? Fortunately, she donated all her money. Are they all blind?"
The more she talked, the more she cried, as if those people were talking about her. He was originally a very emotional woman, and she had no relatives. In her mind, there were only Li Qi and Li Shishi. As you can imagine,
You know how sad she felt when she heard what those people said about Master Li.
It seems that she heard a lot of rumors outside. Li Qi winked at Aunt Chen and asked her to close the door first, then half-hugged Feng Yinu and said, "Yes, yes, they are all bastards, let's go first
Let’s talk after we go in.”
To be continued...