Chapter 83 The taste of being liked
Tang Jinyan is not the kind of reckless man with low emotional intelligence. He could not understand Xu Xian's performance before, just because he could not imagine it, but it does not mean that he really has no doubts.`
The performance is too obvious now, he really understands it.
Xu Xian's heart beat fast, and he couldn't even say a word with dry mouth.
She knew he could see it too.
It's so obvious, everyone can tell... Woo... Xu Xian, you are so stupid, where have you learned your acting skills...
This is a tragic course. Two students who were clearly determined to study hard did not listen to a word in this class. It would be fine if they whispered half of the class. After the whisper, they were still wandering around in the sky. Until the bell rang, they still kept sitting upright and motionless.
"You..." Tang Jinyan finally spoke: "If you don't have a trip, go out for a walk?"
Xu Xian didn't dare to look at him, just nodded.
There are actually many places suitable for tryst in college. Students have a natural sense of smell when looking for such places. Even if there are people who are busy with school hours everywhere, they can always find a pure land on campus that belongs to two people alone.
Unfortunately, neither Tang Jinyan nor Xu Xian learned this skill. Seeing the playground everywhere, both of them stopped involuntarily and felt a little cowardly. They turned to look at the boulevard they had walked past. A pair of little men and women were walking openly inside and hugging, and even holding and gnawing directly, deliberately causing tons of critical damage to the single dogs lying outside.
Tang Jinyan scratched his head.
Xu Xian also scratched his head.
The two of them looked at each other, both shook their heads and laughed. The embarrassing feeling of blushing and heartbeat just now disappeared in a smile and could never be seen again.`
I don’t know who started it first, but the two turned around at the same time in a tacit understanding and walked towards the garage.
"I may fall in love with you." Xu Xian spoke naturally.
Tang Jinyan was not surprised, but just said, "I was surprised. Because I don't think I have something that you like, it's the reason you should hate me."
Xu Xian shook his head: "I thought I had made a mistake before, but... I would want to see you. I went to Professor Li's place to attend classes several times. If you are not here, I was very disappointed... I was very happy to see you unexpectedly at the music center that day. You said you would continue to draw a line with me. I was very sad. This can no longer deceive myself."
Tang Jinyan shut up, he didn't know what he should say. Because this was the first time in his life that he had been confessed to by a woman.
It is no longer a fake girl, but a real woman; it is no longer some ulterior motives I often encountered before, but a real confession.
His heart was beating very hard, his mouth and tongue were dry, and his mind was empty.
Xu Xian walked slowly, tilted his head to look at his side face, his eyes very clear: "Actually, I wanted to confess to you that day at the music center. But... I know that you have someone you like, and I don't want to do anything third-party interfere, nor do I want to send it to the door to the underworld as a lover, so I think it's better to be a friend... Now that you know, then that's fine, let you know my thoughts and let me know your thoughts, and don't make gaps in mutual misunderstandings. I don't like such artificial blood."
This made Tang Jinyan look at him with admiration. He realized that he had never known this girl. In his heart, it was always just a straight and old-fashioned label. It was not until this moment that he suddenly realized that she had her own philosophy of character, a soul with a vivid mark.
Tang Jinyan's thoughts finally came alive from the blank space and sighed softly: "If you ask me what I think... what do you think I should think?"
Xu Xian smiled self-deprecatingly: "It's probably the one that comes to the door, it's useless to not play."
"Actually, you really don't understand me." Tang Jinyan shook his head and said, "I have a principle. Whoever treats me well will be good to me. If I wanted to put you in bed in the past and try the taste of being a young man, then I will never want to harm you now."
Xu Xian turned his head and looked at him with bright eyes.
Tang Jinyan had no expression.
Xu Xian thought for a while and said in confusion: "Why do you always turn around such dirty things inexplicably when you are involved in the matter? You can't even talk about something purer."
"Because that is the most essential theme between men and women, it is not shameful to clearly recognize one's desires. I never believe that there will be a pure relationship between men and women in the world. My identity and way of doing magnify this theme, so that you and I can see it at a glance."
"Where is Renjingo Ni?"
"Su Yeon and I have been friends since we met. I am very confident in my loyalty. Therefore, I can keep the bottom line. Even if I sometimes have a little evil intention because of her beauty, I can easily suppress it."
"So... can't you hold on to me?"
"Maybe, maybe not, I don't have confidence in this." Tang Jinyan finally turned to look at her and whispered: "You and I have had skin-loving relationships, different... I will want to finish my last unfinished career."
Xu Xian was silent, she understood what he meant.
If you don't want to harm her, it's best not to contact her anymore, otherwise one day he will want to complete his last unfinished career and taste the feeling of being busy at a young age.
After all, it was about to break up. Xu Xian sighed inwardly, but this time he was not sad, but instead he was a little sweet in his heart, warm.
Because this time he thought about her heart and lungs, and did not take advantage of the opportunity to confess his love to coax her to bed sweetly. Xu Xian had his own ruler in his heart, and she knew that if he did that, he would have no resistance. But he didn't do that, he was kind-hearted.
She suddenly said, "You are becoming more and more soft-hearted. Is it because of the changes brought by love?"
Tang Jinyan thought for a while and said slowly: "My soft-hearted heart is divided into objects, but there are more and more people who can make me soft-hearted hearted."
"So, is there my share?"
"Yes, I have your share." Tang Jinyan said softly: "I will never forget the unique woman who likes me in my life."
Xu Xian smiled slightly.
The two walked into the garage without realizing it. Tang Jinyan just came here for some reason, and parked the car next to Xu Xian's car.
Tang Jinyan took out the car key and weighed it, but did not open the door. He looked up and seemed to be thinking: "To be honest, I have a strange feeling, I don't know how to say it..."
Xu Xian stood between the two cars, looked left and right, and smiled brightly: "Let me tell me, maybe I can answer it."
Tang Jinyan pondered for a while and whispered: "Whether it is reality or drama, there are many men who reject the girls who like him, are they?"
Xu Xian smiled and said, "Yes, there is one standing in front of me."
Tang Jinyan said in a daze: "I'm wondering, a few years later, what did they think when they saw this girl marrying another man? What did they feel?"
Xu Xian was stunned. This question seemed a bit profound. She had only a little understanding of feelings, and she could not answer it without a similar friend.
Tang Jinyan looked up and thought for a long time, not knowing what kind of emotion this was, and murmured to himself: "I always think I won't want to see that day, but I really don't want to harm you. This kind of emotion is very awkward, I don't know how it came about... By the way, I used to play and shook it, and I've never been so awkward..."
He murmured, silently getting into the car, and Land Rover made a roar and left the garage. I wonder if it was an illusion, but Xu Xian felt that the Land Rover left was a little awkward and hesitant, no longer the arrogant and domineering departure when he said "Death is cooking in the five cauldrons".
A few months ago, Tang Jinyan, who had always used women as bedding, realized for the first time what it felt like to fall in love with someone. It was like a ray of light slashing into the boundless vast expanse. It seemed to be swallowed by the darkness, but it was always stubborn and stubbornly lurking and spreading. I don’t know where it is coming, but I can’t get rid of it. I want to avoid it, but I follow it like a shadow.
Now in the most prosperous period of career and relationship, Tang Jinyan finally realized for the first time what it would be like to be liked, and for the first time he experienced another kind of unexplained regret and reluctance that was born in the process of making choices.
But he couldn't summarize what kind of emotion this is called at this moment, and he couldn't imagine what kind of virtue it would become if such emotions were allowed to continue to develop, and what kind of ending would be if his emotional life seemed to have just stabilized...
(End of Volume 3)
ps: Please use six words to summarize Tang Jiu's emotions. You know (^_^). The different themes of the three volumes should be considered clear, right? Please continue to support Volume 4 - The Crown Volume is about to be published 6~ (To be continued.)
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