I returned to the room, sat in front of the window, and looked at the mountains outside the window, and the mist in my heart began to fade. Although the water vapor lingers on the mountain, I seemed to be able to see every tree in the mountain. What accompanied me was a long-lost headache, the unpredictable future that was like a shadow that was once again falling to me like a domino.

Back then, I was a person who could see the end. Anything, at first glance, accompanied by severe headaches were countless accompanying possibilities. I could think of these possibilities at the same time. This pressure to pull all possibilities at the same time makes people feel exhausted. After arriving in Yucun, the future I saw was single and fixed. I thought I finally subtracted my life to a simple, easy straight line. But at that moment, I realized that I had just lost this ability, and the future was still infinitely complex and irregular, but I couldn't see it.

Most people don’t need to see so many possibilities, and it may be happier if they can’t see the possibility, but when you can see the branches of the future, you often see everything, and it’s hard to decide what you want to see and what you can’t see.

Why did Heixiazi leave that sentence for me? That sentence was full of despair. What did they find when they were exploring here, and made Heixiazi say something like saying goodbye.

This sounds like that: the purpose can be achieved, but they cannot come back, such an event.

They are not afraid of death, I am sure, and to a large extent, they will seek death. Their illness and long life will always make people more or less dangerous. I recalled my second uncle's attitude, and the pain in my heart is like a knife. Did the second uncle sacrifice them to save me?

If Hei Xiazi knew that they had a huge chance of not coming back, then the second uncle would not have known it. The second uncle would have known it a long time ago. If their sacrifice was useless, the second uncle would not agree. Therefore, while sacrificing them, the second uncle must be very sure that his purpose could be achieved. He wanted to save me.

No, my third uncle has reached a cruel tacit understanding between the three of them, and this decision has excluded me?

What is important about me? I am a person who will say goodbye to one day in my life, a person who delays the fat man's wealth and marriage. I let Xiaohua lose all his money, let Xiuxiu's close relatives separate, and let my parents live all day long in the fear of going on the old path of my third uncle. I am far from worthy of the word "innocence" given to me by my grandfather, but in my confused first half of my life, I lived incredibly wonderful. I have seen countless wonders in the world, and I have the most magical and story-producing partners in the world. We sing on the cliffs, chanting scriptures in the snow-capped mountains, wine in the Gobi, and watching the moon on the sea.

My life is enough.

I work so hard, I just hope you all are well, why don’t you understand?

The fat man came over and looked at me. I glanced at him and said, "Naughty, why are you crying?"

I looked at the fat man. In my first half of my life, everyone was deceiving me for my own good. I didn’t expect that at the beginning of my second half of my life, I still couldn’t trust my close relatives and friends.

I hugged the fat man and cried loudly. I was crying for my innocence. I knew that after I cried, I could only believe in myself and I would become that calm person like a machine.

Life is really difficult.

I need to be so strong that the genius will let me go.

The fat man was puzzled and couldn't control my tears, but I looked at my watch, 5 minutes, 4 minutes, 59 seconds, 4 minutes, 58 seconds, 4 minutes, 57 seconds...Three minutes...one minute...return to zero and restart.
Chapter completed!