I drank a lot that night. When I first drank, I thought that I would make life easier in the future. When I drank the fourth bottle of beer, my emotions were vented.

In my previous life, most people were related to me. When I was drinking with Bai Haotian, I suddenly only had to do with myself. Everything I did in the past became clear and simple. I understood what I wanted for the first time. Before the consciousness disappeared, when only myself and alcohol were left, I understood what I wanted.

I drank so happily that night. In the past ten years, twenty years, the days I imagined by myself, the days I was panicked and cowardly, I understood the meaning at this moment.

I said to Bai Haotian: "I always hope that people will not disappoint. Although it is difficult, I finally lived to the point where I was satisfied if I only let one person not disappointed."

Bai Haotian was frightened. He didn't know what I was saying to her after drinking too much, and I didn't know how I was sent home.

That night I heard a lot of sounds in my ears, the third uncle's voice, the second uncle's voice, and the voice of my parents. I have been awake for so many years, and I rarely wake up once. I know that when I wake up, I will recall my thoughts when I was drunk. I saw the simplest self back then, and I seemed to cry.

I dreamed of the Lama Temple in Tibet, the ribbon floating in the dream, dreamed of everything, my belongings, my life belongings, but I dare not touch, emphasize, or solidify them. I am afraid that I am not worthy of those memories and those times. Even though I have done so many things and controlled so many other people, I still dare not say any good words.

The first time I didn’t want to sober myself, especially I didn’t want to. In my hallucinations, my emotions did not need to be suppressed or rational. Everything I had frozen in the first moments. I hope I was strong and mature enough at that time.
Chapter completed!