His refusal was so neat that I had no choice but to say anything.?                                                     �

Mr. Ma was very calm and said to me: "Miss, I have worked hard for a day, so I should have a good rest."

I said, "But some things have not been resolved and I can't sleep even if I lie down."

"Miss, are you hesitating about Pei Yuanxiu?"

"……Um."

"If you have hesitation, don't make a decision first; if you have made a decision, don't hesitate. Miss, think clearly."

"Um."

"I'm leaving."

After saying that, he turned around and left without looking back.

I was still standing there, even more shocked than just now.

Speaking of which, it is probably because of each generation. As a young man, I am far less decisive and straightforward than this old man who is already in his twilight years. I am probably sad for them to see me, but I am angry that I am not fighting for anything.

Hearing my helpless smile, Su Su stepped forward: "Miss, what's wrong?"

"fine."

I just shook my head and walked out. She hurriedly followed and said, "Miss, are you going back to rest?"

"No."

"Then we-"

I looked back at her and saw her looking at me with wide eyes, helpless looking like a puppy, a little cute. I knew she was worried that I might be going to see Pei Yuanxiu, so she was so nervous. I just smiled at her and said, "Let's go and see the old lady."

"Oh, look at the old lady," she exhaled a long sigh: "Okay, that's fine."

“…”

I couldn't help but smile faintly, turned around and left, and she hurriedly followed.

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When I went to Xue Qian's room, it was almost dark and lanterns were hung under the eaves. Although I knew that candles in such a small village were very precious, and ordinary families were reluctant to light a candle even at night, but after all, when we came, the people in Gantang Village were also unlimited to be extravagant.

When I arrived, Aunt Hong happened to come out of it, holding a basin of slightly cool water in her hand.

As soon as she saw me, she immediately came forward: "Miss! I just heard them say that those people took action later. The lady was not injured, right?"

Before I could comfort me, Su Su immediately said, "Don't worry, the young lady has the blessing of the Bodhisattva, and there is nothing to do."

Aunt Hong was skeptical and looked at me up and down for a while, sure that I was really not hurt at all, so she muttered softly: "Amitabha, Amitabha, it's fine."

I laughed, and then asked softly, "How is the old lady?"

"I'm old and I'm a little scared again, a little hot."

"Ah? Have you asked the doctor to come and see him?"

"I've seen it, but I'm just going to have a good time, just take a rest."

"That's it, then I'll-"

I was about to say that I wouldn't go in and disturb her, but the people inside had heard it, and Xue Qian's weak voice came from it: "Is it light?"

When I heard this, I hurriedly said, "It's me."

"Come in."

"……Why."

Aunt Hong nodded at me and told me not to care. I cheered up and then walked in.

There was a faint smell of medicine in the room. It should be that not long after I had taken the medicine, I saw Xue Qian lying on the bed with a soft pillow under her head. Usually she was full of dignity and would not even have a thread of her head, but at this time, her temples were inevitably scattered. She probably just wiped her face with water, and the silk on her forehead was slightly messy.

However, her face was sallow and weak, but instead made people feel a little close.

I walked over gently, stood beside the bed and looked down at her: "My mother..."

She raised her eyelids and looked at me. Just like when Aunt Hong was at the door just now, she looked up and down. She probably had a low fever, but her eyes were brighter. When she looked at me, every look seemed to be filled with some unspeakable sorrow. After looking at me for a long time, she nodded gently: "It's fine. As long as you're not injured."

I said softly: "Mother..."

She raised her hand and pointed at me with her index finger: "You sit down, I'm tired of looking up."

"Um."

I sat obediently on the edge of the bed. She saw my caution and caution, and a bitter smile appeared on her face, and then said, "Since I was young, you have always been afraid of me the most, have you?"

I nodded and shook my head again.

She said again, "Then, do you hate me?"

I was silent for a while, but still shook my head.

She chuckled and said, "I am not as good as you, a child."

I whispered: "My mother, she once told me, Madam, you have your own suffering."

Xue Qian froze slightly, and after a while, she smiled suddenly. The light in her eyes flashed even more and more: "She understands me."

I didn't say anything anymore, just looked at her quietly. When I saw her smiling for a while, then looked down at me, my face looked slightly solemn: "Do you know, actually I - I don't really hate her. At the beginning, I didn't think about hating her."

“…”

"I understand that things like feelings are endless. Even if I have loved your father for so many years, if he really wants someone else in his heart, even if he uses a knife to dig out his heart, he will not be able to win back his heart."

“…”

"What really makes me unwilling to accept is that she treats your father like that."

“…”

"I love him so much, and I love someone so much, why does it make you nothing when you get to your mother?"

“…”

"She always treats him with a faint smile, and speaks with a faint feeling, as if your father can't even arouse her feelings."

“…”

"Your father is magnificent and amazing. Such a person is so kind to her, and he gave her everything. In order to marry her, he left me in the wedding hall and was almost expelled from the Yan family by your grandfather and your great-grandfather. Such a person has done everything for her. What else can she not be satisfied with? Why is she just-"

She became more and more excited as she spoke, her chest kept undulating, and a little redness appeared on her sallow face. When she said this, she was even a little out of breath, and she barely stopped, then looked down at me: "Your father has paid so much for her, why is she not moved at all?"

“…”

Compared to her excitement, I was quite quiet, even a little faint. When she finished speaking, when I looked up at her again, my eyes were also faint.

I thought for a while, and then said softly: "Because, she is not you."

Xue Qian was stunned.

I originally wanted to tell her that, in fact, people who are extremely important to you may be nothing in front of others. Just like the mother of each of us, we cannot be the mother of everyone in the world, we can have respect, but the extra feelings will probably not be able to squeeze out. However, when I recall the time when my mother and father were together, I can't say this.

I paused for a moment and continued, "My mother, she is such a person."

“…”

"There are too many things she has experienced and too much pain. Therefore, her feelings cannot be as intense as you, Mother."

“…”

"Even she is like this to me, my daughter. Did you forget my mother?"

“…”

Xue Qian couldn't speak for a moment and just stared at me blankly, as if she remembered the scenes of her birth back then.

After a long time, she let out a sigh of relief.

I said softly again: "And since my mother understands that it is impossible to come first and come later in life, why do we still have to worry about who has paid more and who has paid less?"

“…”

"I think my father's efforts for my mother are just like my mother's efforts for my father. Does it mean that the other party must also pay the same? Is this transaction fair?"

“…”

"My mother's persistence over the years is whether she is willing to give to that person, or to be fair?"

Xue Qian was speechless when I asked.

She slowly lowered her head. Under the reflection of the candlelight, the face that seemed particularly thin was even older at this moment, even like a masterless ghost. For a moment, all the way and return seemed to have disappeared, making her feel at a loss.

We were silently facing each other. I don’t know how long it took before she finally raised her head and looked at me. A faint smile of relief appeared on her face, and then she said, “You can see through more than me.”

I also smiled softly.

And she continued, "But, you can see so thoroughly, but you still have problems that you can't solve."

I was stunned and looked up at her. She chuckled again, and then said, "Isn't it? Didn't you come to see me to escape the problems you can't solve?"

I said, "My mother..."

She immediately said, "I know, you must have wanted to come to see me, but I said that just now, isn't it?"
To be continued...