"Qingying," he said, reaching out to cover the back of the hand I placed on the table, and said calmly but firmly: "You should understand what the situation would be if you return to Beijing. The imperial city could have been in the past for many years, and in the future it would have been in the future, and even------ for the rest of your life."

“…”

"I can agree to anything, but this is not the only thing."

“…”

"You are my wife, I can't let you take such risks, especially, I can't let you return to the emperor."

“…”

"This is the only thing I can't compromise on."

“…”

I don’t know if it was because I just drank that bowl of medicine, the bitterness of my mouth had almost spread to my heart through my throat. His words also aroused the pain of my old wounds that had been scabbed. Especially when I recalled the years I was locked in the cold palace, it was like a nightmare. Even if I could forget myself, with just one sentence, I would fall into that helpless and desperate situation again.

Seeing my face getting paler, Pei Yuanxiu's hand covering the back of my hand also exerted a little force, which was intertwined with my fingers.

"Qingying, did you hear it?"

“…”

I looked up at him, and after a while, I nodded gently.

His solemn expression calmed down a little, and he smiled a little, then he said, "So, do you want to send Miaoyan to the palace? You should think carefully about it yourself. If you need any manpower, I will make sure to make it."

I nodded again: "I get it."

He seemed to have seen that although I was very calm, my emotions were still quite entangled. Miaoyan's condition was the most serious stone in my heart these days. Whether to send her into the palace or not is not only related to Miaoyan's future, but also almost in my second half of my life. I cannot be careless and cautious.

So he reminded Su Su and the others to not tired me when they served me well, and then turned around and left the inner courtyard, leaving me alone to think quietly. After he left, Xiao Ni and the others came to clean the table. Su Su took clean water to rinse my mouth, spit out the bitter fishy smell in her mouth, and then served a small plate of plums for me to sip.

As soon as I saw it, I looked up at Susu, and smiled and said, "You are so careful. Susu, if you weren't here this time, I really don't know what to do."

Although it was not a word of praise, this sentence seemed to be more useful to Susu than any praise. Her eyes curled up slightly and she said to me: "Then I will always be with the eldest lady, always with her."

I shook my head: "But, I don't need you to be by my side all the time."

"Why?!"

Seeing her anxious look, I smiled faintly and said, "I'm not going to drive you away, but, if possible, I hope you can stay by Miaoyan's side."

"Miss Miaoyan..."

"Yes. I don't know when it will be her chance to cure her illness. So, you can't be without her."

After hearing what I said, Su Su's face became a little serious and she said seriously: "Then, I will always be with Miss Miaoyan."

“…”

"Don't worry, Miss Miaoyan's illness is not cured for a day, I will take care of her all day."

After hearing her confession like this, I felt relieved and couldn't help but look at her again: "What about you? You have been by Miaoyan's side. You don't have what you want to do, no--"

Before he finished speaking, he saw Susu shook his head.

She said seriously: "This is what I want to do."

“…”

"I'll do this well."

“…!”

I looked at her calm and calm eyes with some surprise, and felt extremely shocked in my heart. In this life, I have seen too many people, who are slaughtered by things and trapped by love, making my life extremely complicated and extremely difficult, just like, just like me. But a girl like Susu has no desire to think about him, just treating something as a life, just like a simple and simple life.

This is indeed a kind of direct happiness.

I looked at her for a long time, and said softly with a little bitter smile: "I really envy you."

Su Su looked at me in amazement, not expecting that I would say such words. I had already smiled faintly, picked up a small plum and put it in my mouth. The sweetness and slightly sour taste made the bitterness I had tasted before fade a little. I stood up and looked at the sky outside the window.

A gust of wind blew, causing the bamboo leaves outside the window to sway and make a sound.

Su Su also glanced out the window and said, "Ah, the weather is about to change."
Chapter completed!