Chapter 69 I am
Over the past year, although I have been traveling outside and enjoying the local life in every world, and it seems quite comfortable, I am afraid that only the goddess knows that Shuer’s life is not as good as it seems. Well, to be precise, it is very bad.
I doubt everyone, doubt everything, and spend every day in suspicion. A new face appears? Who is this person, why did he contact me? Could it be the unknown observer? Is it my precaution to alert him? Therefore, if there is a change of identity, I want to see some clues from me, and what can I see from me? If there is no new face, all the old faces appear, he will still be full of doubts. Why is he here at this time? What does he mean by saying this? What do he want to know when he does this? How can I deal with it to dispel his doubts without any contradiction? Even if they are not observers, will they be pawns from observers? Will the real observer be seeing us? What do he know?
With Shuer's position, always being alert in speaking and doing things should be considered an instinct. This is true for most senior officials, but if they reach the point of doubting everything, it would be too exaggerated. It's okay to say that the time is short, but over time, serious psychological problems are likely to occur.
In fact, Shuer knew about his own affairs, and he had signs of distortion in his heart. He had been living in suspicion and panic for more than a year. Even if he had not gone crazy, he was strong enough, but even if he had not gone crazy, he was already close to the verge of collapse. If he continued for a while, no one could guarantee what would happen.
The goddess captured him into the Kingdom of God several times, without reproaching or persuading him, but forced him to sleep in the Kingdom of God, because she knew that Shur had reached the point where he could fall asleep peacefully. Perhaps it was because of the Goddess' behavior that Shur could persist until today. If there was no safe haven where he could temporarily let go of his defense, Shur's prospects were not optimistic.
Fortunately, both the goddess and Shur knew very well that everything was about to end. As long as you grit your teeth and hold on for a few more months, you can get rid of this nightmare suspicion after the ceremony. So Luna did not enlighten Shur too much, and Shur did not find a way to vent his pressure through other channels.
Ms. Silver Moon, Lord Diana, always pays attention to Shuer's gods and sensitively discovers Shuer's abnormality. Although she doesn't know that he is so serious about the brink of collapse, she also knows that something is wrong with him, so she sent her own apostle to warn him. Unfortunately, she did not understand the reason for Shuer's abnormality. Fortunately, Shuer had discovered her mistake at that time and got rid of the state of doubting everything. Otherwise, her kindness might have attracted Shuer's high suspicion, which would increase Shuer's pressure.
There is no doubt that the reason why Shur fell into this situation and doubted everything every day was the existence of the observer. The observer's vision was too terrible. If the other party was still a god, it would be even more terrible. It was almost impossible to stop it. All behaviors could be exposed to the observation's vision. It was almost impossible to conceal the observer from the observer and prevent him from discovering his intentions, but Shur had to complete it. After all, it was related to the safety of the distorted world of the void. Therefore, Shur could only try his best to do whatever he wanted, regardless of the cost, even if he was about to become a madman.
For Shul, the terrible thing about the observer is not only the inability to avoid vision, but the key is the uncertainty of identity, which everyone has the possibility. But even so, Shul also made many guesses about the possible identity of the observer in his mind, trying to sort the possibility of all possible candidates in various ways. However, no matter what method is used to sort, the candidates in two positions among the gods have been fixed. Among them, the god with the lowest possibility is always Mrs. Luna, the lady of Dark Moon, and there is only one god with the highest possibility, which is Kaiya, the mother of the earth.
The Mother of the Earth is the oldest god. It was born before all the gods appeared. No god had witnessed her birth. As a god, she was away from the gods and did not interfere with the development process of the entire world. She only adjusted the direction of development at the most critical moment. In other cases, she was indifferent to everything, did not fight for believers, nor did she even regard protecting the world as a clear purpose like Lord Luna. She just existed simply, like an outsider, watching the change of momentum with cold eyes.
This is already very suspicious, and there is a more critical point. She was the first god to propose that she could try to create a lower-level world in the dream of the gods, and guided Shur to step by step into her dream, and through the detection of the feasibility of the dream world, if it weren't for her guidance, I'm afraid no mortal or god could come up with this method.
Therefore, in Shuer's view, the Mother of Earth is really suspicious, so suspicious that Shuer had to top the list of doubts from the very beginning. It can be said that all the confusing behaviors of Shuer over the past year have regarded the Mother of Earth as an imaginary enemy, and almost all of the behaviors are to avoid the observations of the Mother of Earth.
Of course, Shuer now knows that he is wrong, but the other side is wrong, not the candidate for the observer. In fact, Shuer still believes that Lord Kaiya is the most likely observer. The many temptations he had come before were just to test the other party's attitude.
Even during the half hour of silence just now, Shuer was still thinking about how to test whether the other party was an observer, how to be honest with his mistakes, and how to deal with many complicated problems. He had considered it very complicatedly and prepared at least ten methods.
However... I heard what Kaia said, he was already very clear about his suspicion, and he didn't need his temptation at all. He directly admitted his identity in a vague way. So what have I been struggling with this year? Then what was I thinking crazy for half an hour? It was like a punch full of strength hitting the space. Shuer was so hungry that he almost vomited blood, and he felt his blood vessels beating wildly.
"You are always suspicious that I have the same identity as you in your dreams, well, yes, I admit it, I am." Lord Kaia said lightly, "What's the strange thing about your expression... is it strange? I really don't want other existences to know about this kind of thing, but it's not because it's a secret. It's just that it's unnecessary. If you came to ask me a year ago, I'd told you at that time. If you don't ask directly, I can only think that you didn't think of it."
"Ha? It turns out that it's my fault?"
"Otherwise? Do you want me to chase you and say to you, look at me, I am a monitor, I am really a monitor, I am very awesome." Lord Kaia sighed and said helplessly, "Do you think it's possible?"
Chapter completed!