Human feelings are what Li Yi lacks the most. In fact, sometimes, there are ways to save others, so why not do it? Although it will be harder and delay time, the mind will be satisfied. The heart needs light to fill it, at least he is.
Li Yi forced his move to stop his rescue and allowed Tom to carry on the cruel drama, which deeply hurt his heart, just like he had caused this tragedy with his own hands. The indulgence of inaction is no different from killing with his own hands.
He decisively abandoned the dark Li Yi and went to find his own light.
But where is the light? What is already illusory is more like a symbol, just like the sun in the sky. The plants, trees, people and animals on the ground have never been in close contact with it, but they can feel the warmth of the sun, let all things sprout, let the frozen river flow again, let the world brighten, and the darkness and cold are dispersed.
"It's ridiculous. In the past, I would never think like this. It was Li Yi who taught me how to think and how to use my brain, but now I'm carrying him on his back. Perhaps people with different beliefs will part ways. In fact, I have always thought about accepting it, but it has not changed into what he hoped, the mood of a strong man." Dionysus, wrapped in a gray coat, was not accompanied by Li Yi and Andrew, looked a little desolate. The lonely life without friends was simply unbearable for a person like him.
Loneliness is a kind of pain. No one can accompany you or speak. The quiet surroundings want to make you crazy. At this time, only by recalling your past life and immersing your thoughts in the past can you relieve the loneliness in your heart.
Some animals are kept alone in cages and will die soon. The same is true.
"Oh, it's useless to think so much. First, accept the second stage of inheritance. My teacher, the ancient explorer Saint Roman, has been with asceticism all his life, abstinence and dieting. Although it is not necessary to abide by his teachings to obtain his inheritance, each stage of inheritance has to go through hardship to obtain it." Dionysus said to himself that the first stage of inheritance was a library and a sealed sheep man Pan Youling. In order to obtain this inheritance, he was bitten by the poisonous snake under test countless times, followed by the scorching sun, and then turned into the cold of ice and snow. Various natural harsh environments tortured and finally passed. These are all like illusions, but they give people the feeling of being real, just to find people with strong willpower.
It is no wonder that if Li Yi left behind a legacy, he would definitely set up a test and find someone with a similar personality to his own, just like a fellow practitioner, and he also had the idea of ​​hoping that he would complete his unfinished Hongyuan.
"What kind of person do this adult want me to be? What kind of wish do I hope I fulfill?" Dionysus once again crossed the Milasa Mountains in the southern part of the continent and entered a valley covered with darkness all year round. The tall pine wood here is several hundred meters high and four or five people are hugging each other. The thick pine leaves blocked the sunlight. The ground was covered with yellow pine needles, and they stepped on their feet, soft, as if they were stepping on the snow.
Dionysus held a white iron oil lamp in his hand, illuminating the forest that was pitch black even during the day, without the sound of wind or birds singing. The strong fragrance of pine mushrooms emanated from under the thick pine needles. The fermented pine leaves and mushrooms steeped in little bit, making people drowsy. However, Dionysus did not pick it, and even carefully did not change any environment, because there were people who were very important to him, his teacher Saint Roman, even more important than Li Yi. In the middle of the quiet and dark forest, a small tombstone was covered by fallen leaves, which read: There is an old man who is admired in front of him.
The bell roars like a dragon,
The mist is long and the ochre returns to the clear
There are hermits in the turquoise forest,
A straw raincoat sleeps with the moon.
I don’t know if it was established for him in front of the tomb owner, or if it was written on it by relatives and friends after death. However, in this dark pine forest, not only is it not gloomy and weird, but it makes people feel the tranquility after death from the bottom of their hearts.
When he walked into the tombstone, the earth suddenly trembled slightly. Of course, he was mentally prepared. The soil around him cracked and three stone statues emerged from the ground.
The first stone statue lacks both ears, leaving only two terrible holes, which represents deafness.
The second stone statue's eyes are still two terrifying holes, representing blindness.
The third stone statue has nothing in its mouth, and of course it has no teeth or tongue, which means it loses its sense of taste.
"Only by experiencing pain can you gain strength. When you receive the first stage of inheritance, you are temporarily deprived of your hearing. The world suddenly fell into silence. I finally learned about the pain of deaf people. I was unable to communicate with others, but I couldn't say what I thought in my heart. Now it's the second stage. According to the meaning of the stone statue, I will lose my eyesight. No matter so much, it's better to do something than wandering around in vain." Dionysus is not used to having many colorful thoughts in his mind all day long. Like Li Yi, he is full of his head.
He occasionally thinks of Abby, just like he is suffering from a second-year illness. He always thinks that his future girlfriend will be Abby, and he is even a little self-righteous, and begins to fantasize about all kinds of details of holding hands. He also thinks that he will become a top explorer in the mainland and be on par with Li Yi in the future, instead of dragging him behind like a follower. He has the identity of a top explorer and is qualified to be Abby. This is a small delusion in the boy's heart.
Dionysus is only fifteen or sixteen years old, and thinking like this is very consistent with this age.
What is maturity? Say a few beautiful words and have the courage to show yourself in front of everyone. If it is maturity, then the so-called maturity is too simple and easy to achieve. In fact, every move can reflect youthfulness or maturity. As for women, it is charm, as for fruits, it is fragrance and color, and as for men, it is too much.
From the moment Dionysus left Li Yi's team, he thought he suddenly became independent, that is, he was mature, and could rely on his own ability to accept the next stage of Saint Roman's inheritance, and his golden-level spirit also allowed him to enter the ranks of middle-level explorers on the continent. Then, he seemed to be able to make his own decisions.
But now, in this quiet pine forest, in this valley isolated from the outside world, there are many thoughts, and glass beads are bumping in my mind, and my mind is pulled into thousands of threads in the endless echo.
To be precise, it is confusion. Confusion is because he does not understand himself, does not understand others, and has no friends. He desires to be recognized, needs, and is regarded as the center. He desires to have in-depth communication with others so that what he wants can be expressed, especially when he talks with beautiful girls, such as Abby, who will not be ashamed of being a man but revealing his weak heart.
"After accepting the inheritance, what should I do? Li Yi, I am no longer willing to meet him. Is this a escape? I don't want to go back to Sky Academy, there is nothing to me, and even the memories are very weak. I want to go to Kurozawa Academy to find Abby, but when I meet, I don't know what she thinks after she is so rash. Will she be disgusted by this? Alas, forget it, let's consider it when the acceptance of the inheritance is over, and there is no clue at all now." Dionysus shook his head and put these things aside. There are more important things at the moment.
"Dear Saint Roman, the first spirit I inherited from you and the first important partner in my life. Pan, has reached the initial level of the Golden Level and now needs the second stage of inheritance, which is disturbing." Dionysus bowed deeply to the tombstone and said respectfully.
The tombstone was speechless, but the surrounding environment was twisted. His eyes suddenly turned black and he was temporarily deprived of his eyesight.
"My inheritor, hearing this recording means that you have begun to accept the second stage of inheritance. Don't be afraid, don't panic. What you stick to in your heart is your goal. Even if that is wrong, even if that cannot be admired by thousands of people, even if it is a childish and ridiculous idea in your childhood, you will not have any other regrets. If you keep following your original heart, you will not lose yourself and will not easily do things you regret." The body will sink, and Dionysus feels that he is covered with a stone shackle, which is more than a hundred pounds, which is so oppressed that he can't breathe. The rough stone is against his body, cold and hard. And his mind also has the rules of this inheritance, or learn about the procedures he wants to go through.
Step by step, walking towards an unknown direction, with muddy swamps under your feet, hunger and cold feeling gradually spread from your stomach to your whole body.
Hunger continued to bite Dionysus, darkness, mud, and coldness were more like an accessory of hunger, and nothing was more painful than hunger, which was directly applied to the whole body, the most primitive lack of human beings.
The darkness, coldness and humidity made his heart burst into uncontrollable fear. He actually thought he was very mature half a quarter of an hour ago, but now his legs are about to tremble, and his thoughts on maturity have long been thrown out of the sky.
Next, something even more uncomfortable and disgusting happened. The mud wrapped around his body. A cold snake crawled around on his skin and made a second type of contact with him. The rough scales on the snake's skin drew blood marks on his skin. The cold little toad, this brown-black disgusting thing, seemed to treat this place as a paradise. Dionysus's eyes couldn't see it, but he heard their gurgling joyful singing. It was really disgusting.
For the first time, he found himself afraid of these things, besides the fear of human animals, fear of hunger, darkness, cold, and all the slippery ones, snakes, toads, mud, and swamps.
The more you think about the fear, the more you become. He wants to escape, but this is not daily life. This is the inheritance of Saint Roman and a test he voluntarily accepts. Therefore, you have to endure pain and fear, otherwise it will be failure.
The taste of failure is very bad. The party who failed the battle between explorers lost everything. In the period after Li Yi, he could experience this more. Life, wealth, traces of existence, and the spirits that had been trained for a long time. Li Yi took action to erase or deprive it after failure.
Fear failure, and there is another one more fear in my heart. People are really a creature that is particularly prone to fear. Even themselves will be afraid, but if they are fearless, they will die quickly, which is also a kind of self-protection.
"I am really incompetent. I am weak like a woman. No, I have to hold on and not let others underestimate me!" Dionysus cried in his heart, but there is no one around him. Sometimes, the sense of existence brought by other people's recognition is something that some people think they are respected or supported by existence. This is because weak people must rely on strong to exist. If they have this feeling in their hearts, they will develop dependence and become people living in the eyes of others. Their life is also continued based on pleasing others.
But why do we exist to please others? From the beginning, we are a unique life, thinking and acting uniquely. I don’t know when we start, we pursue gorgeous clothes, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, to make others praise, as if the self that lives in the eyes of others is the real self.
This is the biggest deception of the heart. After all, I am a memory fragment in the eyes of others, occupying less than one billionth of their memory bank, but I am the whole of my memory bank. People should live to please themselves, live according to their original heart, and live selfishly.
The collective interests blind the eyes, and the individual bites the heart like a bug. The human moral norms that have been subtly instilled in the form of absurdity. The stones will fall to the ground. If the stones regard this as morality, then the stones thrown into the sky will be evil.
Human beings have been continuing their morality in a ridiculous and distorted manner. The most ridiculous thing is that they cannot end from one thing. The positive and negative aspects of a matter are praised as morality at different times. After all, they are just pointed out by what they say and public opinion that fools the people.
Dionysus thought about it and finally abandoned shame, cold, dark, dampness, mud, and all were part of nature. When a person was born into this world, he was surrounded by all kinds of nature. In the early morning, the sun was touched by his cheeks, and the rain could wet the ends of his hair. The fragrance of flowers in the air and the subtle dust were all part of nature, just like a fish living in the water.
He was very surprised that he had such a thought. Holding the rough stone in his hand, he would feel the hardness of nature. Water leaked through his fingers. It was the softness of nature, infinite changes, and carried the whole of human beings. It was like a breeding ground for plants. If there was no nature and no world, human beings would be born in the vast void and could not think, because there was no reference, they could not eat, because there was no food, they could not communicate, because the air could spread sounds. How terrible it was!
After a few hours, my heart was no longer as disgusted as before. I gradually got used to it, and the mud wrapped around him, gradually sinking, and my body was dragged to a colder place.
I have vision but recovered, and there is no dazzling feeling after the regained light, because when I open my eyes, it is a world full of blue light.
"What does Teacher Saint Roman want to tell me? Where is this place? No, I should still be in the valley now. This is a illusion and an influence left by the teacher." Dionysus mudded to himself, the mud and small animals on his body were washed away by the flowing water, and clean joy came from every inch of his skin. He was suspended in the water, with black mud on it, and a cluster of white daffodils bloomed from the mud, struggling hard, trying to penetrate the thick mud and go to the lake to find sunlight and air.
Chapter completed!