A few days ago, I had a sudden idea and conducted an experiment that I regret a little now.

I wonder if my book friends would feel that something was missing if I didn't show up. The result was very unexpected. No one realized that I hadn't appeared for several days. Everyone was chatting normally, talking about the plot of other books, talking about gossip in the Korean entertainment industry, and talking about various...

Then I got it, oh, no one remembers you.

This feeling is very uncomfortable.

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This book is a casual work. If I put it here, I suddenly realized that casual things are often very good, and once they are utilitarian, they will be finished. I hope that those who are interested in writing books will take it as a warning.

Recently I have been thinking about a question, why my friends left me one after another. I thought about it for many days, but I really came up with something.

When this book was first, it was really popular. Because you had never seen a book on this subject, I was a loser at that time, and suddenly became popular and a little bit popular. Because no one paid attention to you before, suddenly you have more friends.

Then I learned a news that a great god was restricting his leader from rewarding my books. I was very angry. Why? Because this great god was imitating me. My thought at the time was that you imitate me and even stumbling behind me. It was so shameless. The person who told me the news also told the details of a question: a great god said when chatting with his hardcore people that the subject I wrote was good, and he also wanted to try to write it. If it was better, it would be okay to throw a vest if it didn't work.

I believed both messages, and then I began to confront each other. Now, I should have asked this great god at that time because we didn’t know each other. But my thoughts at that time were, I had a big talk with such a despicable person?

Alas, now thinking about it, maybe neither of these news is true. Thinking back, the people who said these words to me were full of provocation.

I really can't tell whether it is true or false. I am such a person, and it's hard to believe that people who are good to me may actually be lying to me. But now thinking about it now, I really can't tell.

Perhaps from that time on, my mentality changed. I was no longer casual and full of competition. Then many people appeared around me, and they told me that if I fought with Ya, Ya was despicable and shameless.

I believed it, but I didn't listen to them and fought with Ya. I was not a person who "fights around" in my bones, and I didn't want my book friends to be burdened. During the New Book Month, people in the group said they helped me get monthly tickets, but I refused several times. Then I missed the opportunity to enter the high-quality channel. Now, if I had fought with Ya at that time, maybe that wouldn't be the case.

Perhaps from then on, the people around me were shaken by me. Because they couldn't feel cohesion, a successful author needed cohesion. I read an interview with Tang Jia San Shao. He said that he wanted to be the glass of water that a book friend would wake up every morning, and he always felt that something was missing if he didn't drink it. But what I thought at the time was that I wanted to be my book friend's friend's reason was very simple, and I didn't have many friends.

At that time, I thought, I was so popular, who would be friends with Zhengfeng? I wanted to be friends with book friends. As long as I worked hard, I would definitely be friends.

It turns out that I overestimated myself. I really can't do what the great god didn't do. I vented my personal emotions in the group so vividly, without any image management. Now I think about it, I feel a little regretful. If I use one-tenth of my ability to pretend to cheat my equipment when playing World of Warcraft, you will definitely love me to death.

Alas, the past is like smoke...

Now I am a little confused. I wonder if you have heard a saying that there is only so much that a person can say in his life. Now that he says it, there is nothing to say in the future. I want to be kind to someone who is a little better to me, but now I feel that I have been fooled.

What I said always reaches the ears of people I don't want him to know about.

The meme I said in the group took another book to use within a few days.

Suddenly I felt like a fool. Guess if the person who fooled me would secretly get sick?

Of course, I may still be wrong about someone I say, but now I don’t want to think about these things anymore.

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Recently, I think there may be something wrong with my brain, so I actually went to a pirated website to read the comments from those people about me. As a result, I found that many people recently said that I asked me to finish the book. Because they found it boring, they advised me to finish the book and write it to keep a little popularity. If I continue writing it, my character will be ruined and I can’t make it in this circle.

There are many such people. Do you know what I am thinking when I see these things?

I was thinking, it turns out that in their eyes, there is a circle here.

So, as a member of this circle, what am I?

A person I know told me that writing books cannot be substituted into feelings, so it is done as a job. There is one chapter in the morning, noon and evening, just like a word-code machine. You can write whatever readers like and you will definitely make money. Just make money, why do you think so much?

Just like there are people quarrels in the book review area of ​​a certain book every day recently, should the author and the author's books be linked together?

If I had put it in the past, I would have made a single chapter of sarcasm, but now I haven't done so. I'm starting to be careful because I don't know if such sarcasm is appropriate.

I don't think I should meddle in other people's business. After all, I have to subscribe to the book. I can say that this person is two-faced, but in essence we are actually the same. People can say that you are a pure love party, so don't enter VIP, you are free? He can also say that he is a hateful person because of love, so there is no point in this matter when it comes to a break. Who is right and who is wrong, and who knows what he thinks, and it is impossible to tell.

So I felt that I shouldn't say anything, but I couldn't help it, and I wanted to talk about myself.

What kind of Korean entertainment novel author I think is a good author is what I am trying to do.

1. You must know what your original intention is. If you like writing about Korean entertainment and make money, I don’t like this kind of person.

2. If you write like the person, don’t be hypocritical. I always think that writing Korean entertainment novels should be to make others like them more and to make passers-by become fans, which will also help them. Instead of using others to like them to achieve some purpose and treat them as an NPC. If you don’t understand the difference, then pretend I didn’t say it.

Look, I am still so idle that I offended people again.

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Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in a trap designed by some people who are fighting, but some people tell me that I actually have 'drunk paranoia'. What is true, I used to think I know, but now I really don't know.

I have to escape from these troubles.

The person who advised me to finish the book, I agree with you. But I won’t listen to you because I haven’t finished it yet. I have to finish a complete story and finish the book before my rent is exhausted. When I moved out, I brag to my dad that I will definitely become a writer, and which writer belongs to eunuchs?

Who said that day in the group? Girls' Generation is about to be exposed, and now there are sunny and Xu Xian left. I suddenly feel very lucky, one is my lover and the other is my master. But unfortunately, if one day it will be revealed, either one will hurt me. But please rest assured, I don't know how to be a eunuch, and I will definitely write it to the end.

As for the next book, who do you think people like me will write about as the heroine besides Girls' Generation?

In the past month and a half, I have made some monthly tickets, rewards, and recommendation tickets, but I woke up at noon today and suddenly felt like a stupid one.

What am I doing? Is it so far? Don’t say that I still have money in my pocket now and can afford beer and skewers. Even if I don’t have it, I can get home. At worst, I can lose face and it won’t be like that.

What am I doing? I think I'm crazy.

Now I tell you, please make sure that every recommendation vote, monthly vote, and every reward you vote for me is based on your affirmation of the book I wrote. If not, what I mean is that if it is the so-called "seeing face", please don't vote for me, even if you have no place to vote, don't vote for me.

I will still update the reward, which is a thank you.

No matter what the grades are, I will still write carefully next month. Because the birthdays of the two people I care about most are concentrated next month, on the 15th and 30th, I will definitely update them. Many people complained that I did not explode, so let you see this time.

Oh, by the way, I invite everyone to participate in the birthday support raising with me. For a few dollars, I can’t suffer a big loss and it’s not a fool. I just treat it as a gift to me, I promise to have a big waist.

I have written so much in a long and long way, thank you for reading it. I suddenly felt so tired during this period, so I decided to go to bed now and have a big waist when I wake up.

New update time, let me think about it. I recently felt that the update at 10 o'clock was a bit early because I just woke up at that time.

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